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Are you a prepper?
As I still long for farming in the future, I enjoy watching some videos on farming, before going to bed, though not daily. Then, I happened to find out there are many so-called preppers. Some seem to be Christians and they move to the country, to farm and be sufficient from homesteading. Others who don’t seem to be Christians still choose to live simply, live off-the-grid and enjoy nature and health. (Some are maybe from financial reasons, too.) Among Christian preppers, some seemed to start to live off-the-grid very long ago, and they showed how to wash their clothes, using the old tools. Like I wrote in the previous blog, The Spirit of Fear, I used to believe mid or post-Trib rapture, and I thought living off-the-grid someday in the future might be necessary. Yet, on the other hand, I thought to myself, “What if those preppers found out they didn’t really have to live off-the-grid for so many years, by being raptured or simply dying anytime soon before the Tribulation?”
These days, I do think being sensitive to the Holy Spirit is absolutely important. I would like to share one of my episodes last year. A Christian friend of mine encouraged me to hoard some foods, after she heard a prophecy. And I appreciated her sharing it, as she cares for me. I also encouraged another friend of mine to pray over it and hoard the foods, if she is led to do so. Thinking back of that time, I think I actually hoarded the foods out of fear, not from the Holy Spirit’s guidance. So, I hoarded so many bags of rice in the closet. I planned to share them with the needy so that the number of bags I stored was way higher than the yearly consumption of my mom and me. Maybe 6~9 months after I started to store the rice, I found out black little bugs in one rice bag. I was afraid that the rest of the rice bags would have the bugs, too. So, I shared my story with a self-funding missionary for North Korea and asked her whether she would mind taking the rice from me. I didn’t really want to share the rice with the bugs at all, but my good intention didn’t come out perfect, due to the bugs. As the missionary knew my heart and she also had about 8 family members including her daughter and grandchildren from Canada at that time, she said their rice consumption was unbelievable. Thankfully, her family said that the bugs are a great source of protein! Yet, I regretted in a sense that I could have rather shipped the fresh rice bags to her every month than hoarded them for months in my closet for long. Since then, I stopped hoarding rice in my place, but started to send a fresh rice bag to a school in Seoul for North-Korean refugees. I acknowledge that I was not successful in listening to the Holy Spirit correctly, yet He made all things work together for good at the end of the day. (Like in my previous blog, Praying the Scriptures, He used the rice bags in the closet in teaching me on the Scripture I asked Him. And He still satisfied the need of the missionary’s family.) Yet, I think it’s important to be in His perfect will and in His perfect timing. For some people in some countries, the prophecy would have been true. But at least for me, I didn’t have to hoard the foods at that time. Or the prophecy might not be for the year 2020, but this year or next year.
So, looking back at my mistake and thinking of the preppers and some end-time prophecies, I think that each one of us should listen to the Holy Spirit. If I heard Him tell me to prepare for living off-the-grid, I should do that. But, if it’s simply out of fear or out of random prophecy here and there, I think there could be some waste of time, efforts and so on. I believe some prophets really saw the dooms to come, but I think that even those true visions and dreams might show the times to come after the Rapture. Apostle John saw the dooms to come and recorded them in the book of Revelation, but they didn’t happen in his time. Yet, the Lord had a purpose to show things to him and let him write them down. Likewise, even when the true prophets or seers heard or saw what would come, I think it would not necessarily happen to me in my lifetime on earth. Some prophecies would happen to the undecisive or the unbelievers who remain on the earth, after the Rapture. As there would be still those who come out of the Tribulation, there would be some people who choose to believe in Christ during the Great Tribulation, in addition to all the Jews who would be saved at the end. So, the purpose of those visions or dreams could be for those who would be still on earth and later read the articles or watch the videos or whatsoever. I do not know which prophecies would really come to pass during my time, but I believe that the Holy Spirit would let me know in person, if I should prepare for something.
Thinking back all the thoughts in my mind related to the end time prophecies here and there and many views on the rapture, I began to realize that I was under the spirit of fear, though I wanted to fulfill my destiny, helping people believe the Lord, and supporting them. Now, I realize that my focus should be whether I’m really ready and prepared to see the Lord even tonight! If I hold any grudges against someone, I must reconcile with him or her and forgive or ask forgiveness. And there should be no ulterior motive between Jesus and me, as the relationship between Bridegroom and Bride. Preparing spiritually is way more important than preparing in finance, and other material and physical stuffs. I realize that the focus on the Great Tribulation out of the fear distracted me from focusing on Jesus and living holy right at this moment. And I’m grateful to the Lord, as He led me into the right path.
Speaking of this, I was simply reminded of the dream I had on September 3rd this year. I dwelled on the dream for a while, trying to interpret it. In the dream, I saw a pretty lady looking like Marilyn Monroe, though she was not. And she wore kind of a bling-bling long black dress. And I think she had kind of a mantle which was orange color. While she was walking, her dress on the shoulder part almost dropped as if the seam came apart. So, I was surprised. But she was able to hold the upper part of her dress on her shoulder, so it was ok. She held an umbrella in her hand toward the sky and sang the song, “Singing in the rain.”
When I woke up, I wondered what the dream meant. The song “Singing in the rain” was so clear in my memory. And I even googled the lyric of the song, to try to understand what the Lord wants to say to me:
I'm singin' in the rain
Just singin' in the rain
What a glorious feeling
I'm happy again.
I'm laughing at clouds.
So dark up above,
The sun's in my heart
And I'm ready for love.
Let the stormy clouds chase.
Everyone from the place
Come on with the rain
I've a smile on my face
I walk down the lane
With a happy refrain
Singing in the rain
Dancing in the rain
La ri la la ri la,
I'm happy again
I'm singin' and dancing in the rain
I'm dancing and singin' in the rain
I had an impression that the rain would be some kind of trouble, but we, His children will still sing and dance in the rain. Then, the orange color of her mantle remained so vivid to my memory. I seldom saw orange color in my dreams. When I looked up James Goll’s book, I was surprised to read:
“ORANGE - Danger, great jeopardy, harm; a common color combination is orange and black, which usually signifies great evil or danger; bright or fire orange can be power, force, energy.”
So, I guessed the lady’s black dress together with the orange mantle might signify great evil or danger to come. The umbrella she held meant a lot, related to the episode I shared in my previous blog, God Is Our Refuge and Strength. So, I interpret the song gives us assurance even when we have upheaval or even the Great Tribulation.
I pray that you and I get ready and prepared to meet our Lord, our Bridegroom at any moment, even tonight, and we live holy and walk in His love, and we become true preppers, in Jesus’ name. I do believe there would be more shakings to come, but we don’t fear, but have peace and move in His perfect timing, listening to His voice. He abides in us and we abide in Him.
Have a bliss!
My child, never drift off course from these two goals for your life: