How are you? I’m well.
I would like to share the latest story of mine on Spiritual Warfare. In January 2022, Sister Margaret Seaward started to teach Spiritual Warfare and the Book of Revelation via Zoom meeting. In all honesty, Spiritual Warfare is my least favorite subject, as I know there would be some demonic attack, if I tried to learn more on this subject. Yet, I know I must not ignore this, and I also wanted to take her class, as she had been faithfully and passionately teaching her students.
Then on January 6th, I had a dream. I felt there was an evil spirit or demon and it was on my side, more precisely, on my cheek. I wanted to move my body, but I couldn’t. I felt as if I were frozen. Finally, I was able to move and wake up. It was around 1:30am. I felt horrible. Then, I felt the room was quite cold, and I felt chilly. I’ve never felt that bad in my body for the past few years. So, for that moment, I had a fear that I would be very sick. Then, I found out my mom closed our bedroom door, which she normally didn’t. As our bedroom is colder than the living room with the heater on, we used to open the door for the air circulation. Anyway, when I saw our bedroom door closed, I opened it. But, my mom, not sleeping, but going to and fro the restroom, she kept closing the door. I became so sensitive and annoyed. As I was utterly gripped by the fear that I had a chill and I would be sick, I bluntly told her not to close the door. But it never helped her understand and be reminded, due to her dementia. And I also felt that the enemy didn’t really want me to attend the Spiritual Warfare class that would start at 10am. Recently, I felt mom very demanding on her breakfast whenever I had Sister Margaret’s class. So, for the moment, on my bed, I debated as to whether I would not attend the class live, but watch it later on demand in YouTube, thinking the enemy would bother me every time.
While my mom kept closing our bedroom door, I lost my temper and I also lost my sleep. On my bed, I also heard my mom talking to herself. Interestingly, she brought up the subjects that reminded me of the bad memories a few years back when I got so weary from the Spiritual Warfare. Yet, I said to myself, “I’m not earth-bound, but Heaven-bound and my inheritance is in Heaven. I have Christ in me, the hope of glory.”
A few hours later, it was around 8am. I was still on my bed, after getting some sleep. Then, my mom opened the curtains of our bedroom, which she normally didn’t. I am the one who open the curtains after mom wakes up. If I sleep in or she gets up early, she doesn’t open the curtains, not to wake me up. But on that day, she did, and I was really annoyed and got angry at her. Later, when I got up, I gave her breakfast, but not feeling good at all nor smiling at her. Then, I picked up my Bible to read out Colossians 1:13~14, “He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love, in whom we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins.” The Scriptures came into my mind, as I recalled Sister Margaret’s sharing her testimony when she delivered a Christian lady who was under demonic influence. The Holy Spirit told Sister Margaret to read Colossians 1:13 out over her. I thought I had been under the attack since the dream, as I kept getting angry at mom. And I felt this is not against flesh and blood, i.e. my mom, but against the power of darkness. After reading it out loud, I also asked the Lord to give me His love and His heart so that I would be kind and gentle to her. Then, I thought I would go to grocery store and bakery before the class, to get mom’s favorite ice-cream and breads. So, she wouldn’t interrupt me during the class and I also wanted to give her some pleasure and be kind to her. After my prayer and reading the Scriptures, I felt better and I noticed mom also felt my attitude was changed and she became happy and kind, not like earlier in the day.
Later at 10am, the class started. To my amazement, the first Scripture Sister Margaret asked a student to read out was Colossians 1:13. During the class, I felt why the Lord allowed me to go through the situation overnight and in the morning. It was a hands-on training and learning. And everything Sister Margaret taught was simply real.
Friend, I would not write everything I learned from the class, but would like to share some of them:
none are immune to Spiritual Warfare;
the moment we are born-again, we become involved;
satan desires to sap our strength by using people and circumstances;
wrong attitudes toward it is indifference, carelessness, tiredness, weariness, passivity, discouragement, hopelessness. Spiritual apathy is dangerous.
The fear gripped me when I had the dream on the evil spirit and felt so cold and weak when I got up. And I became so angry at mom and talked to her bluntly. It was all the enemy’s attack, but I felt so annoyed at mom. I was grateful, as the Lord reminded me of the Scriptures, helped me understand whom I should deal with, and gave a heart to love her. You know what? My mom was super happy all day long, since I asked Him to pour out His love on me. Not only she didn’t interrupt my class, but she was happy till she went to bed.
You and I are not immune, yet we have good news. We have the whole armor of God, as written in Ephesians 6. And when you feel you or your loved ones are under the attack, I would like to encourage you to read Colossians 1:13~14, as His Words are the Sword and they have Power. While writing this blog, I smiled, as I just happened to hear Pastor Joe Sweet in Lancaster, CA mention Colossians 1:13 during Thursday worship live meeting in YouTube. Over the past few years, the Lord made me smile many times, as He repeated the messages just on time! Friend, I’m being very assured that this is for you, too.
Have a bliss!
He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love, in whom we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins. (Colossians 1:13~14)
How are you today? I’m well.
Today, I would like to share with you my experience in spiritual warfare. Do you like the words, “spiritual warfare”? I don’t, but I know we as His children must live with it, as the enemy won’t leave us alone. And more importantly, as the Scripture talks about “The Whole Armor of God” in Ephesians chapter six, we are not alone, but we have the Armor from our Father, and He is always with us.
One day, when I listened to Derek Prince’s sermon, he shared one of his episodes. When he asked the audience “What is the evidence of receiving the Holy Spirit?”, expecting the answer “Tongue”, he heard someone answer “Pain!” I was amused when I listened to it. And I couldn’t agree with it enough.
I still recall that I was full of joy, and my face was glowing after I was baptized in the Holy Spirit. One day, my colleague said to me, “Yunee, you look so happy these days! What happened to you?” And one day during my visit home, my sister said, “You’re different this time. You look so blessed!” She noticed some changes inside me, after the baptism in the Holy Spirit. But I can say to you, “Honeymoon was over!”
As I shared in my previous blog, “Hearing the Voice of God”, I felt somehow that the Lord would give me the gift of healing. And I started to be interested in listening to Derek Prince’s sermons on healings, and I also took the class “Supernatural Healing” in one church in Singapore after work at night. Then, I also had the chance to read Derek Prince’s book, “Lucifer Exposed: The Devil’s Plan to Destroy Your Life” and it illuminated the spiritual forces under Satan. The book was extremely helpful to me. I knew that there are demonic spirits from the Bible, and I also could hear and see the manifestation of the evil spirits in some people during the church service in Korea and China. And I also learned about deliverance which ministers to those who are under the demonic influence to set them free. But I was afraid of knowing this area and wanted to avoid it, if possible. Yet, I learned that deliverance and healing could not be separated and some diseases, not all, came from spiritual issues such as unforgiving hearts, demonic spirits and so forth. Then, when I read the book “Lucifer Exposed”, I realized that my mom was under demonic influence and I could see some evil spirits such as manipulation (witchcraft), the spirit of fear, the spirit of control, the spirit of lies, self-pity and so forth. And I also got to understand from many preachers’ teachings that even Christians can be under demonic influences, and I heard some preachers share their own experiences that they were delivered from evil spirits. Derek Prince also shared his own experience that he had been delivered from depression. And I think I was delivered from evil spirits when I was baptized in the Holy Spirit and cried out loud uncontrollably. I felt such freedom after the baptism, and I found myself changed.
Then, I heard from my sister that mom used to say to her, “Yunee became weird since she went to Singapore. I think there is something wrong with her church.” I think it was not her, but the evil spirits inside her that made her think that way.
Then, fierce spiritual warfare began in 2017. Indeed, the Devil wants to steal and kill, and destroy. My mom was a good mom. She was affectionate, sacrificial, diligent, kind, smart, generous, and strong. Her neighbors respected and liked her much. And I was very close to her, and I was her favorite youngest girl. In October 2017, my mom stayed with me in Singapore for a couple of months, until I left the country for good. One day, she and I went to a church book store. On the bookshelf, I saw a Derek Prince book, “They shall expel demons”. Long ago, I had conflicting thoughts as to whether or not I should buy the book. I thought I should learn more about this spiritual realm, but on the other hand, I was a little bit scared to know much. But on that day, I finally made up my mind to buy the book and learn more about it. Right on that very day at home, I felt that spiritual warfare was just for real. My mom became so violent to me at home for the first time in my life, and it left me a trauma. Since that day, she started doing some things that I could not totally understand. When I worked in the office, I got calls from unknown numbers. I usually didn’t answer the numbers I did not know, but I picked up the repeating calls from the unknown numbers. Sometimes, it was from a security lady or neighbors. They said my mom got out of my place and asked them to give me a call. She already had a phone in my place, and she used to call me on my home phone. But she made me so nervous, leaving home alone and asking strangers to call me. And one night, she woke me up and said her body was so itchy. She never woke me up when I fell asleep, no matter how sick she was. I felt she wasn’t herself, but the evil spirits wanted to destroy me both physically and spiritually. And her weird acts continued and got even worse when we came back to Korea. She had this delusion that I would give away everything she owns to churches. And I knew it was from the evil spirits in her, and it made her lose peace and sanity. In the middle of the night after 2:00 am when I fell asleep, she opened the door of my bedroom, and turned on the light, barging in. She said, “Where is my bankbook? And where is my passport?” She wasn’t herself, and her eyes looked very different. She left my room in a mess in the middle of the night, like a thief that searched for something. And whenever I went out for grocery shopping, or a prayer meeting, or errands, she called the police to report me missing. But she never called me on my mobile phone, but directly called the police. One day, a policewoman called me and asked me whether I could stop my mom from calling them, as they understood that she was not normal, but she continued to disturb them from their priorities.
My mom’s insane mode continued for about six months, since I bought the book, “They shall expel demons” in Singapore. And to make a very long story short, now, I want to declare that I came out more than victorious by His love. It has been almost three years since I looked after mom alone. I feel that I passed through the test as if I passed through a burning fire, and now, I’m in a new season.
Looking back at the difficult times, I’m still so grateful for His loving-kindness. One Sunday in Singapore, a pastor who ministered in a Muslim country preached as a guest speaker. It was my second time of listening to his preaching, and every time, I was so blessed. On that Sunday, after his sermon, he made an altar call for those who want to be prayed for. I was so weary and desperate for mom that I came to the altar. When he prayed for me, I saw him smile at me, and he said to me, “He says He loves you, and all of your family will be saved.” What comfort! How sweet our Father is! His words that my family would all be saved gave me hope. Even when the night looked so dark, I kept His words in my heart that He would save my mom. He would save her by the same grace as He saved me.
If you are passing through fire now or have been in a difficult season so long, being weary, I would like to encourage you. He is faithful, and He is always with you. You are more than a conqueror through Him who loves you. He will turn your season of mourning into a season of dancing. You’re not alone.
I will share more stories. Please, stay tuned.
Have a bliss!
Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.