How are you? I’m well.
Are you worried about tomorrow? In all honesty, I was.
Since the Holy Spirit baptism in 2016, I became hungry and thirsty for studying the Bible. Then, when I took a class on the book of Revelation and read and watched many preachers’ teachings on it, I realized we are indeed living in the last days. Of course, you would know there are a lot of prophecies in YouTube on what will happen in the near future. And I know that some ministries started to teach the very practical trainings such as living off-grid, waste management and so on. And I would understand that it would be perhaps based on the belief that the rapture would take place in the middle of the Great Tribulation or at the end of it. As I used to believe so-called mid-Trib or post-Trib, I thought I would need those trainings somedays in the future. But, whenever I just tried to watch one of those trainings, I became scared and felt so gloomy. Then, one day, when I listened to Derek Prince’ teaching, I heard him say honestly that he did not know whether it would be pre, mid or post-Trib. I respect his honesty. And I found out the Scriptures say our Father would protect us, no matter what.
Yet, I also got to know there was a teaching on Rapture by Pastor John Fenn in The Church Without Walls International website. Before I talked about it, I would like to share an episode related to him. In 2020 when the US President election became a hot issue among many Christians in the USA and in the rest of the world, there were so many prophecies about the President Trump’s being re-elected. At that time, Pastor John Fenn posted a video on the false prophecy. As I am always on the conservative side, I prayed and believed that Trump would be re-elected. But, when I was watching Pastor John Fenn’s talking about people’s stealing others’ words on the election and being false prophets, I became angry and didn’t even finish watching it. But later, among the myriads of the prophets, Pastor John Fenn and Pastor Rick Joyner were just a few who turned out to be right and what they said came to pass. And I got to hear that only one prophet said apology in public about hearing Him wrong. It made me be reminded of Derek Prince’s saying that he never saw a prophet to apologize in public, after it turned out that the prophecy didn’t come to pass. Then, I repented to the Lord of my attitude toward Pastor John Fenn earlier. I realized that I only chose to hear what I wanted to hear, regardless of the true will of God, and I would be no different from the Israelites who persecuted Isaiah and Jeremiah, as they prophesized the doom to come to Israel. So, after the incident, I give credit to both Pastor John Fenn and Pastor Rick Joyner, not only for hearing the Lord correctly, but for having a courage to say something that would not please many conservative Christians. And I’ve been subscribing their weekly or monthly words, not only because they were accurate, but their teachings through their books and so on enlightened me.
So, going back to the Rapture, I found out Pastor John taught pre-Trib. In all honesty, it gave me so much comfort and peace. But I also kept the teachings of other preachers I respect in my mind, who had or have different views. So, still being a bit confused with many voices, I was surprised to receive a text message from Sister Margaret Seaward from Singapore. As she wanted me to call her, I did. And she asked me whether I would be interested in attending her classes on Discipleship and the Last Days through Zoom meeting. I was thankful to the Lord, as I felt that the Lord wants me to be trained and equipped by Sister Margaret whom I love and respect. Though I just started to join her class in the middle, missing the previous sessions, her recent class on the Last Days also gave me both peace and encouragement to live holy and ready, to be caught up anytime, even tonight! After listening to Sister Margaret and Pastor John, I think pre-Trib makes more sense to me. Yet, it encourages me more to be conformed to the image of Christ and live ready every day.
Speaking of Pastor John’s teaching, I would like to share his latest teaching, “How the Spirit Disguises Itself” together with a short description on The Church Without Walls International website:
Are you protecting a wrong spirit by reasonings about Covid, politics, or religion?
The world is polarized about politics and vaccinations, and many have strong opinions and reasons they believe as they do. But some are actually protecting a spirit of fear by putting up all kinds of reasons that sound good, but only serve to protect the spirits of fear, confusion and strife who have found a home in their thinking and emotions. This series pinpoints traits allowing you to determine if that is you or someone you know, and how to escape and find the Lord’s peace once again.
I liked this teaching and it helped me spiritually discern things and be free from the spirit of fear. And I would like to encourage you to listen to it, if you think you need it, too.
When it comes to the discussion on pre, mid, or post-Trib, I do not know whether my belief would turn out to be wrong later. And my intention is not to clarify which is correct. But, at least, I felt that I had a check in my heart on something that I felt was uncomfortable. If some teachings trigger the fear and/or the pride (to be a selected few remnants), I think we must ask the Lord for the discernment, as His Words would not trigger the fear, nor the pride. Love casts out fear, and love is not puffed up.
I might share more, related to this. In the meantime, we, as the sheep, listen to our Shepherd. As we know His voice, we are not deceived nor fear, I pray in Jesus’ name.
Have a bliss!
Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. We love Him because He first loved us. (1 John 4:17~19)
How are you? Hope you had or are having a good day, today?
Last month, I read a Pastor Rick Joyner’s book, The Final Quest, which was based on his prophetic experiences such as dreams and trance. I heard a few preachers and prophets mention the book and the late Pastor Neville Johnson said in one of teachings that we must keep that book next to the Bible. And he shared a story from the book, which touched and enlightened me. Pastor Rick saw many saints in the heaven from the lowest rank to the highest. Among the highest rank of saints, he saw a homeless person, named Angelo, whom Jesus once showed to Pastor Rick through a vision. And I would like to share the conversation between Jesus and Pastor Rick on Angelo from the book:
“Of course, that is why we are here. Angelo was so faithful with the little I had given to him that I gave him three more portions of My love. He used all of that to quit stealing. He almost starved, but he refused to take anything that was not his. He bought his food with what he could make collecting bottles, and occasionally he found someone who would let him do yard work.
“Angelo could not hear, but he had learned to read, so I sent him a gospel tract. As he read it, the Spirit opened his heart, and he gave his life to Me. I again doubled the portions of My love to Him, and he faithfully used all of them. He wanted to share Me with others, but he could not speak. Even though he lived in such poverty, he started spending over half of everything he made on gospel tracts to give out on street corners.”
“How many did he lead to you?” I asked, thinking that it must have been multitudes for him to be sitting with the kings.
“One,” the Lord answered. “In order to encourage him, I let him lead a dying alcoholic to Me. It encouraged him so much that he would have stood on that corner for many more years just to bring another soul to repentance. But all of heaven was entreating Me to bring him here quickly, and I, too, wanted him to receive his reward.”
“How did he die?” I asked, remembering that he had been martyred. Based on what I had seen so far, I was half expecting that I somehow was even responsible for that. “He froze to death trying to keep alive an old wino who had passed out in the cold.”
“Angelo was a martyr every day that he lived. He would only do enough for himself to stay alive, and he gladly sacrificed his life to save a needy friend. As Paul wrote to the Corinthians, even if you give your body to be burned, but do not have love, it counts as nothing. But, when you give yourself with love, it counts for much. “Angelo died every day, because he did not live for himself, but for others. Even though he always considered himself the least of the saints, he was truly one of the greatest. As you have already learned, many of those who consider themselves the greatest, and are considered by others to be the greatest, end up being the least here. Angelo did not die for a doctrine, or even for his testimony, but he did die for Me.”
The story on Angelo moved my heart. And there are many other stories in that book that made me fear the Lord and think how I should live here on earth.
And one day when I was reading the book, I felt that I must apologize to my sister in California for our debate a few days ago. So, I texted her, saying sorry for the words I said to her. I simply did, from the fear of the Lord. Then, I received her reply the next morning. She accepted my apology, but also said she is thankful that I’m her sister. Only then did I realize that I repented and said sorry to her, as I was afraid of missing the mark in my higher calling. I apologized to her, totally self-centered, but I didn’t realize she was hurt by me in the past. I began to realize I should love and respect her, not out of my selfish motive, but from the love of Father:
Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others. (Philippians 2:3~4)
And it led me into another repentance, and I was grateful to the Lord that He revealed my self-centeredness.
I know it’s not easy to be a martyr like Angelo, but we must die daily, and Christ should live in us. It’s my prayer that we humble ourselves and love others with the heart of Father and we die and live for Him, in Jesus’ name.
Have a bliss!
We continually share in the death of Jesus in our own bodies so that the resurrection life of Jesus will be revealed through our humanity. We consider living to mean that we are constantly being handed over to death for Jesus’ sake so that the life of Jesus will be revealed through our humanity. So, then, death is at work in us but it releases life in you. ( 2 Corinthians 4:10~12 The Passion Translation)
How are you? I’m well.
Today, I would like to write more on House Church. On March 30, this year, I had a dream. In a swimming pool, there came many people. Among them, I saw dozens of pregnant women. In the water, people sat around, making a big circle. And I swam, circling around them, behind their backs. Later at night, the swimming pool was supposed to be closed and I wished I could have stayed longer, but I was trying to leave the pool.
When I awoke, I felt it was part of the consecutive dreams on house church, following the three dreams I shared in my previous blog, House Church 2. I interpret the people who circled around were the people in house church, as if they sat around on the sofa at home. And I also interpret a big circle would mean spirit realm and swimming is moving in the spirit realm. And the pregnant women would mean the Lord’s bringing forth something new through house church. And there would be a great harvest, as the pool was crowded with people.
Later, I wanted to search for some teachings online on house church in Korean, to share them with a Korean missionary. And I was quite surprised to see a series of teachings that were posted at that time, and the shows were produced by a Christian TV network that my Seoul church founded. It is a mega church, yet it started to teach on house church. The shows featured a Korean pastor who served a Korean church in Houston in the USA. He was an engineer in Silicon Valley before he was called to the ministry. When he was invited to become a pastor in the Korean church in Houston, he wanted to have a church in the New Testament, which is house church. So, he made a condition that he would like to run the church like house church, though there would be a corporate gathering in the traditional church setting on Sunday. So, during the shows, he shared what the house church is, what it should be like and so on. And he said that the only verb among Jesus' commands that is present progressive form in the original Greek is “make disciples.” So, we must keep on making disciples. And he went on to say that many Christians try to make a scholar, when it comes to the discipleship. But it is about doing Jesus’ ministry and having His character in us.
I was reminded of what Pastor John Fenn said that discipleship is supernatural. I would understand that. Just think about your family or your workplace or your school or your church. People are not always lovable. Perhaps your closest ones would be the ones to push your buttons. And you would see so selfish and self-centered people in church! But we should love those seemingly unlovable people with the heart of Father. I heard some preachers say that we should look at others just as our Father looks at them. I know it would need much patience, but it’s all about love. It’s my prayer these days that I would have the Father’s heart and His eyes so that I would love others and see them as He sees them. I still fail, but I would not give up, and continue to ask the Father to have mercy on me and help me.
No matter whether you will be part of a house church or a traditional church, I would like to encourage you to be a disciple, not just a member of church and to keep on making disciples. It would start from your home, your workplace, your school and your communities. I pray that we love our Lord and love our neighbors and we are conformed to the image of Christ, in Jesus’ name.
Have a bliss!
Shepherd the flock of God which is among you, serving as overseers, not by compulsion but willingly, not for dishonest gain but eagerly; nor as being lords over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock; and when the Chief Shepherd appears, you will receive the crown of glory that does not fade away. (1 Peter 5:2~4)
How are you? I’m well.
On August 18th, I woke up in the morning and I left home for the time alone with the Lord. In front of the elevator to go downstairs, I felt I should check the weather on my mobile phone again and I felt it was prompted by the Holy Spirit. When I got up on my bed perhaps 20 minutes ago, I checked the weather and it was just cloudy for the next few hours in the morning. Yet, I felt I should check the weather forecast again, before getting into the elevator. So, I checked it and to my surprise it shows 40~70% of probability of rain for the next 2 hours. So, when the elevator stopped in front of me, I didn’t take it but went back home to grab my umbrella. It didn’t rain yet, but I was grateful to the Lord to give me the thought to check the weather forecast again. Then, walking toward the nearby museum, I thought to myself, “What if it really rains during my prayer and worship? Where should I go, then?” I thought of a few cafés near the museum that would open early, but I was afraid that they might have a loud background music. Then, somehow in my heart, I had a peace, as if He said to me that I would be totally fine under the patio umbrella at the table in the museum garden where I used to take a seat. So, I took a seat at the table under the patio umbrella. Then, in an hour, after I read His Words and prayed, it started to rain! I saw a lady under another patio umbrella in the opposite side leave the table in a hurry, without an umbrella in her hand. Then, I looked up and around my table. Strangely, there was no wind at all and the leaves in the trees worked as another layer of shade for me so that even a drop of rain didn’t come into the table. I looked up and saw the patio umbrella, and found the umbrella perfectly cover the wood seat so that my back didn’t get any drop of rain. And I thought of His Words that I read a while back:
The name of the Lord is a strong tower;
The righteous run to it and are safe. (Proverbs 18:10)
I was simply amazed and thankful, as the Holy Spirit warned me of the rain, yet He also assured me that I would be ok outside, even when it rains. I felt the Holy Spirit wanted to teach me to be sensitive to Him, reminded of what I read in the Pastor John Fenn’s book, “Pursuing the Seasons of God.” Then, I was reminded that I have a song downloaded on my mobile phone, “God is My Refuge and Strength” and I played out the song, and I was simply joyful, singing along that song. I felt the Lord was teaching me that I should listen to and obey Him, even on a small matter and when I obey Him, I would be safe. He is indeed my Refuge and Rock in the time of trouble.
In light of being sensitive to the Holy Spirit and asking His Lordship, I would like to share another story. In Korea, now the Covid-19 vaccines are available this month for my age. Previously, I didn’t even have to debate on that, as the vaccine supply was short. And I never put my confidence in the vaccines, but in the Lord. And I also thought each believer should ask the Lord and follow His direction. I know, even in churches, pastors and prophets all have different sayings. Then, one day, when I listened to two pastors’ sharing their opinions, I agreed with them and had peace. They said that they don’t believe the vaccines will protect us from the virus. But we should not also fear any side effects from the vaccines, if it’s the reason of not getting one. Certainly, this vaccination is not 666, the mark of the beast. Our decision must be based on whether it will help expand the Kingdom of God. If it does, then, go ahead with the vaccines without fear. Later, when I read the June newsletter from Pastor John Fenn’s Church Without Walls International website, I felt his insight was helpful and it gave me peace on the idea of getting a jab:
Some Christians have given themselves over to this spirit causing division in the world
That division into angry tribes, divided and stirred up by the ‘woke’ culture, is happening to some in the body of Christ. They see the body of Christ divided into tribes based on their stance on the ‘shot’ or based on politics, or even gender or racial issues perhaps.
Friendships have been broken off because one Christian takes a stand on one side of an issue, and their friend doesn’t, so they get angry – never realizing they are being enticed by a demon combined with their own wrong thoughts to do so. Their anger and action reveal they are as Paul said in I Timothy 4:1: Giving heed to ‘seducing spirits and teachings of demons’, which Paul said would be loosed in the last days. Shame on them.
The word ‘seducing’, ‘planos’ in the Greek, means to cause a person to wander, misleading information, imposter, deceiver’. Some have given themselves to misleading information not realizing a spirit is behind it. The key is this – are they in peace, for James 3 says the wisdom from the Lord is pure, peaceful, easily approached. But the wisdom of the world is not peaceful, and causes envy, strife, and confusion.
Of course a Christian merely has to repent, acknowledging the truth to whoever they cut off from their lives, and rebuke the spirit they gave heed to.
Yet, before I applied for the vaccination, I wanted to get His confirmation. So, I said to Him, “Father, I have peace on the idea of getting the vaccines. But, would You please give me the confirmation?” And I was in awe when my prayer was answered so soon like in a few hours. In that evening, I had a monthly online meeting with a few brothers and sisters and during the meeting, one of the pastors asked us to intercede for those in Cyprus. He said that they think this vaccine is the mark of the beast and they refused to take it, while the cases spiked in there. And my pastor in Singapore prayed that the spirit of division and the spirit of deception cut off and we prayed together in agreement. And I was simply in awe in my heart for His confirmation. So, now, I had the first jab, without the fear of any short term and long term side effect, even though a Christian brother kept sending me all the videos and articles that we should not take vaccines! I believe each one of us should ask the Lord and follow Him and also respect other’s decision.
I wanted to share these stories, as I think being sensitive to the Holy Spirit is more important than before. We would see more shakings come including natural disasters, plagues and so on. Yet, He is our Refuge and Strength in time of trouble. All we need to do is to put our confidence in Him and listen to and obey Him. While I was writing this, I was reminded of a Christian pilot in Indonesia, who obeyed the voice of the Holy Spirit and saved 140 passengers a few minutes before the earthquake and tsunami hit Palu in Indonesia in 2018. I’m sharing the link of the news article with his testimony here.
Have a bliss!
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,