How are you? Hope you had or are having a good day, today?
Last month, I read a Pastor Rick Joyner’s book, The Final Quest, which was based on his prophetic experiences such as dreams and trance. I heard a few preachers and prophets mention the book and the late Pastor Neville Johnson said in one of teachings that we must keep that book next to the Bible. And he shared a story from the book, which touched and enlightened me. Pastor Rick saw many saints in the heaven from the lowest rank to the highest. Among the highest rank of saints, he saw a homeless person, named Angelo, whom Jesus once showed to Pastor Rick through a vision. And I would like to share the conversation between Jesus and Pastor Rick on Angelo from the book:
“Of course, that is why we are here. Angelo was so faithful with the little I had given to him that I gave him three more portions of My love. He used all of that to quit stealing. He almost starved, but he refused to take anything that was not his. He bought his food with what he could make collecting bottles, and occasionally he found someone who would let him do yard work.
“Angelo could not hear, but he had learned to read, so I sent him a gospel tract. As he read it, the Spirit opened his heart, and he gave his life to Me. I again doubled the portions of My love to Him, and he faithfully used all of them. He wanted to share Me with others, but he could not speak. Even though he lived in such poverty, he started spending over half of everything he made on gospel tracts to give out on street corners.”
“How many did he lead to you?” I asked, thinking that it must have been multitudes for him to be sitting with the kings.
“One,” the Lord answered. “In order to encourage him, I let him lead a dying alcoholic to Me. It encouraged him so much that he would have stood on that corner for many more years just to bring another soul to repentance. But all of heaven was entreating Me to bring him here quickly, and I, too, wanted him to receive his reward.”
“How did he die?” I asked, remembering that he had been martyred. Based on what I had seen so far, I was half expecting that I somehow was even responsible for that. “He froze to death trying to keep alive an old wino who had passed out in the cold.”
“Angelo was a martyr every day that he lived. He would only do enough for himself to stay alive, and he gladly sacrificed his life to save a needy friend. As Paul wrote to the Corinthians, even if you give your body to be burned, but do not have love, it counts as nothing. But, when you give yourself with love, it counts for much. “Angelo died every day, because he did not live for himself, but for others. Even though he always considered himself the least of the saints, he was truly one of the greatest. As you have already learned, many of those who consider themselves the greatest, and are considered by others to be the greatest, end up being the least here. Angelo did not die for a doctrine, or even for his testimony, but he did die for Me.”
The story on Angelo moved my heart. And there are many other stories in that book that made me fear the Lord and think how I should live here on earth.
And one day when I was reading the book, I felt that I must apologize to my sister in California for our debate a few days ago. So, I texted her, saying sorry for the words I said to her. I simply did, from the fear of the Lord. Then, I received her reply the next morning. She accepted my apology, but also said she is thankful that I’m her sister. Only then did I realize that I repented and said sorry to her, as I was afraid of missing the mark in my higher calling. I apologized to her, totally self-centered, but I didn’t realize she was hurt by me in the past. I began to realize I should love and respect her, not out of my selfish motive, but from the love of Father:
Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others. (Philippians 2:3~4)
And it led me into another repentance, and I was grateful to the Lord that He revealed my self-centeredness.
I know it’s not easy to be a martyr like Angelo, but we must die daily, and Christ should live in us. It’s my prayer that we humble ourselves and love others with the heart of Father and we die and live for Him, in Jesus’ name.
Have a bliss!
We continually share in the death of Jesus in our own bodies so that the resurrection life of Jesus will be revealed through our humanity. We consider living to mean that we are constantly being handed over to death for Jesus’ sake so that the life of Jesus will be revealed through our humanity. So, then, death is at work in us but it releases life in you. ( 2 Corinthians 4:10~12 The Passion Translation)