How are you?
If God would appear in your dream and ask one thing you want Him to do, what would you ask Him?
In all honesty, I once expected Jesus to visit me in person or me to go to the third Heaven. As I got hungry for more of God, and sometimes listened to or watched prophecy or others’ testimonies, I wanted to have those spectacular experiences. As He showed me short visions and dreams, and made me smell the fragrance of Jesus, after the Holy Spirit baptism, I sort of expected and longed for His manifestation. Actually, there are many prophets or teachers who encourage people to expect them or even teach how to visualize Jesus and so on. But, thankfully I learned through Pastor John Fenn’s teachings that Jesus said to him in person that they are erroneous. And Pastor John wrote and said that he never asked Him to visit him. Everything is initiated by God, not us. It is actually in line with Derek Prince’ teachings, too. I’m grateful, as the Father led me to balanced and right teachings through them, away from those erroneous teachings. And my heart is longing for having Abba’s heart, not those spectacular experiences, WOW moments. I would often say to the Father, “Father, I want You to transplant Your heart into me.” Though it may not happen in a blink of an eye, I believe He would answer my prayer.
One day when I was reading a Watchman Nee’s book, Worship God, a lady’s story simply hit me:
worship comes only from seeing. It does not come because we see doctrine. It is revelation. Praise and worship is something objective, thanksgiving is something subjective. Know the Father and the heart will be filled with joy. Know God and the heart will be filled with glory. Glory cannot be explained, but those who see God know what glory is. Let me illustrate this with an experience from the life of Mrs. Jessie Penn-Lewis. From her biography we learn that she was seeking for the enduement of power from on high. “Then two or three searching questions were put to me by the Spirit of God. The first was: ‘If I answer your cry, are you willing to be unpopular?’ Unpopular! Be rejected? Well yes, I am willing. I have never faced it before, but I am willing. Why did I desire the fullness of the Spirit? Was it for success in service, and that I should be considered a muchused worker? Would I desire the same fullness of the Spirit if it meant apparent failure, and becoming the off-scouring of all things in the eyes of others? This had not occurred to me before, and I quickly agreed to any conditions the Lord should please to set before me. “Again came the question:—Would I be willing to have no great experience, but agree to live and walk entirely by faith in the Word of God? ... Yes! These were the questions put to me by God, and then the matter dropped. “Then came the climax, when one morning I awoke, and lo, I beheld before me a hand holding up in terrible light a handful of filthy rags, whilst a gentle voice said: ‘This is the outcome of all our past service for God.’ ‘But Lord, I have been surrendered and consecrated to thee all these years: It was consecrated work!’ ‘Yes, my child, but all your service has been consecrated self: the outcome of your own energy: your own plans for winning souls: your own devotion. All for Me, I grant you, but yourself, all the same.’ “The unveiling was truly a horror to me, and brought me in deep abasement to the Blood of Christ for cleansing. Then came the still, small voice once more, and this time it was the one little word— ‘Crucified’! “Crucified—what did it mean? I had not asked to be crucified, but to be filled. But now Romans 6.6-11 became a power to me, and I knew the meaning of ‘our old man was crucified with Him . . .’and what Paul meant in his words, ‘crucified with Christ’ (Gal. 2.20).
After reading this, I became serious, and I asked the same questions to me:
If He would answer my cry (i.e. giving His heart to me), am I willing to be unpopular and even rejected? Would I be willing to have no great experience, but agree to live and walk entirely by faith in the Word of God?
At that night, I knelt down on my bed, and said to the Father, “Father, I am willing to be unpopular or misunderstood. I am willing to have no great experience, no WOW moment. I would not expect Jesus to visit me in person, nor would expect Your manifested presence. I just want to have Your heart in me.” I did mean it, and I began to have such peace since then.
In Pastor John Fenn’s teaching on holiness, he shared Jesus’ asking “Why are you doing what you’re doing?” He sees our motives. Holiness is transparency and has no ulterior motives just like the Father, and our Lord, Jesus. It spoke to me much, and I started to ask myself why I’m doing what I’m doing. So, while I prayed that prayer, I wanted to be honest and transparent to the Father, and did mean that I would not expect any spectacular experience any more, but simply want to have His heart and the likeness of Jesus. That would be my goal for the rest of my life on this earth. Since that prayer, I became peaceful during my worship, as I was transparent in front of the Father. Without expecting some kind of wonderful moment of God, I was able to sing worship songs, and take time to listen to Him in silence. Then, one day, He taught me on His meek and lowly heart through the Scriptures as well as Pastor John’s teachings. Another day, He taught me on the subject I kept wondering, through a Pastor Rick Joyner’s book. They were all so timely that I was marveled. There was nothing spectacular. Yet I felt that is indeed supernatural. He sees everything in my heart and every subject I was curious about. And He taught me His ways through others’ teachings & writings in a timely manner.
One day, early in the morning, I read the Bible on my bed under a dim light, and prayed and worshipped Him for a while. Later, after the sun rose, I went to the living room and continued reading my Bible on the sofa. While reading the Bible, I suddenly smelled fresh fragrance just under my nose. It was like I used to smell His presence just under my nose, in my Singapore time, after the Holy Spirit baptism, but the fragrance was different. And I just thought that it was as though the train of Jesus’ robe caused the fragrance, and He tried to say to me that He is here with me in the living room.
I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, high and lifted up, and the train of His robe filled the temple. (Isaiah 6:1)
I was surprised by this unexpected fragrance, yet I didn’t long for having that experience.
Then, one night, to worship the Father, I went to my bedroom early, and sat on my bed. But my mom kept coming into my room, and said goodnight a few times. I didn’t feel bothered at all, but I thought to myself that I would rather lie on my bed, to pretend to sleep, and I would just worship the Father, lying on my bed. I thought it’s better under that circumstance, though I don’t like to worship Him, lying, and at the end of the day, my heart is important. So, I didn’t even play out worship music to sing along, from my phone or iPad. Without any songs to play out, I made my own melodies. I sort of improvised songs with my own melodies and my own lyrics. They were just my praise and confession on how great, how good, how kind, how awesome He is. There are so many things to praise Him for, and I sang my songs, as if I were a psalmist. I made lyrics, simply saying why I love Him. Then, tears welled up in my eyes. I had to keep using Kleenex, while singing on my bed. Then, a moment came when I couldn’t say nor sing any more, but knew I should be silent due to the weight of the Father’s presence. I simply sobbed under His presence. And He gently spoke to me. And I learned what worship is. It’s not necessarily music, but it’s really heart. When I think of the reasons why I worship Him, and express my heart, He consumes my sacrifice with His fire. He is satisfied. And I should also be transparent, with no ulterior motives.
Would you take some time today or tonight simply to express your love toward our Father and our Lord, Jesus with your own lyrics? It’s my prayer that you and I become the true worshipers and satisfy Him.
Have a bliss!
But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him. God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth. (John 4:23~24)
On March 31st, I had a dream where I got to know I had made an appointment with a Buddhist co-worker in my first company. In reality, he was interested in me, and after he left the company, he called me to go out for a dinner. I didn’t want to see him so that I ignored that. But in the dream, I got to be reminded by another colleague that I had planned to date with that co-worker without asking the Father. I felt I made a grave mistake, and I hated to see him, feeling disgust inside. Finally, I called him, to say I would not go to see him. He already seemed to be waiting for me, and he expressed how upset he was. Though I felt sorry for him, I chose not to feel even more sorry for myself later. When I awoke, I simply felt that it was a warning dream, and He wants me to ask Him before I meet anyone. Otherwise, I would regret, just as I did in the dream.
Later in the evening, when I worshipped the Father and took some time, being silent, to listen to Him, He said, “My daughter, the dream was from Me. Ask Me before you try to make an appointment with any. It is to protect you from distraction. To be My priest, completely surrender to Me. Even if it seems weird to others and you feel uncomfortable about it, obey Me. You can still intercede for those whom I wouldn’t allow you to meet.” When I heard that, I was reminded of the testimony of the elder in my previous Seoul church, who used to be an ambassador to China, and wrote the book, The Ambassador of God. After retirement, whenever he got calls or texts from his ex-colleagues, friends, etc., he would ask the Father whether he should meet them. When the Father said, “Don’t meet him,” he wouldn’t even reply to that person. But he was not afraid of losing friends or being misunderstood or backbitten. He said that he actually interceded for those whom the Father didn’t allow him to meet. So, instead of seeing them in person, he kept them in his prayers, which is more important. Reminded of his testimony, I thought to myself I would do the same.
Then, next morning, when I read Mark chapter five, I came to read the word, permit or permission three times. It was Jesus’ giving or not giving permission. The word, permission, was highlighted to me, and I felt the Father repeated what He said the other night, and reminded me that I should ask Jesus permission.
Then, I found out I had received an email from Pastor John Fenn’s ministry and it included weekly thoughts for that week. I have been subscribing his monthly newsletter, but not weekly thoughts. I usually visit his website to read weekly thoughts. But, for some reasons, for the past 2 weeks, his weekly reports were not posted in his website. I wondered why. Then, I came to receive his weekly thoughts email for the first time, and got to know from the title that it was the last episode of the series with total 3 episodes. As I didn’t see the previous 2 episodes in his website, I thought I must search the same title in it. Finally I located the previous 2 episodes I had missed over the last couple of weeks. When I read through 3 episodes, I got to understand why He hindered me from reading them for the last 2 weeks, but gave them to me that day. The series of episodes timely explained why He wants me to ask Him permission before I would meet any. They were on Nehemiah, and the short excerpts are:
“All of that happened because 1 man refused to be distracted, threatened, coerced, bribed, or manipulated by those who opposed him.
That 1 man motivated others to join him, sharing the vision, and making it that each person had to rebuild the wall in front of their own house, making it personal, so that they were building to protect their own families.”
He wants me to set a boundary, not to be distracted, threatened, manipulated, etc., when He does something new with me. I was amazed to read this explanation, only after I had the dream, heard His voice (Rhema) and read His confirmation through Logos till that morning. And I felt He orchestrated the time of receiving the weekly thoughts by email, though I didn’t subscribe it.
After that, over the next couple of weeks, I had a couple of incidents where I applied my learning, i.e. setting a boundary. I might share part of them in later blogs. In the meantime, I would also like to share some excerpts from a Pastor Rick Joyner’s book, the Prophetic Ministry, I recently read. They gave me affirmation:
The Protection of Prophecies
Years ago I was given a prophecy that one of the greatest attacks against the church in the last days was going to come from false brethren. These are not false shepherds, false prophets, or false teachers, but false brethren. They are being sent to steal the children’s bread by consuming 90 percent of the leadership’s time, energy, and resources without ever really changing or producing fruit. This is part of the devil’s strategy in the last days to “wear out the saints.” This one word has probably saved my ministry, my family, and maybe even my life. I have watched those who did not heed this word pay a terrible price for it. As watchmen and shepherds, we must learn to spot these spiritual traps and avoid them. False brethren are “black holes” of self-centeredness and self-pity, who will steal the children’s bread if we do not recognize them and refuse to continue ministering to those who do not produce fruit in keeping with their professed repentance.
As we come closer to the end, it will become increasingly important that we not be distracted or waste our time, energy, and resources on problems that could have been avoided. For this we need dependable, accurate prophetic ministries.
I was so grateful for getting to read this in the book. I felt as though He wanted me to be enlightened and equipped for my future house church as well as my future family. Interestingly enough, while I was writing the draft of this blog, I came to watch a Korean Christian TV show over lunch, and listened to a guest speaker’s sharing her testimony. After she had some supernatural encounters with the Father, and was changed, she didn’t want to waste her time any more. She used to have more than 3,000 contacts in her phone, as she was a people person. But, she started to ask the Father whether she can call or see her friends, etc. before she tried to call or see them. She ended up with losing many of them, but she knew she did the right thing, in order to closely walk with the Father. I felt Him affirming this subject, and I wanted to re-watch that part from her testimony before going to bed. Then, in that evening, my niece texted me to ask whether I would be available on this Saturday. Her mother, my oldest sister, and she would come over to my place on the weekend, to have lunch and hang around with our mom, her grandmother, since my sister came back to Seoul in late March. My niece wanted to give me a heads-up that she might have a reunion lunch meeting with some of her friends on Saturday, yet she was debating whether she would go to that meeting. And she also asked my opinion on another appointment during the week with her old friends from the USA, who are in town. Since she asked my opinion, I shared my thoughts, knowing the background of their relationship, and said to her, “Ask the Father, anyway.” Then, after re-watching the testimony, I felt the message of our being set-apart was supposed to be shared with my niece. So I shared it. Immediately, she replied, “That was literally just having this exact conversation with my friend!!! That simplicity of circles of friends is a much better way to live!!! Since Sunday I’ve been thinking how I used to be so addicted to social engagement but now I’ve become significantly more social minimalist. haha As in being intentional about who I give access to be part of my circles. Thank you for sharing! Always grateful for how He speaks through you!”
I don’t know whether this speaks to you. You might think, “Should I need permission from the Lord, even for meeting someone?” I would do this, not because of religiosity, but out of my submission to the Father, and I’d like to share the excerpts from a Watchman Nee’s book, Worship God:
What is the kingdom? “Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven” [see Matt. 6.10]. That means that there will be no human will coming out to limit Him. When the question of the will is settled, then the question of power is also settled. What is the secret of really serving the Lord? It is not doing a hundred and one things for the Lord. Service is really submission to the Lord—knowing the true meaning of that word, “to obey is better than sacrifice” [1 Sam. 15.22b]. Abraham was one who obeyed God’s voice; and the Lord is after such utter responsiveness to himself, so that He can have a free way unhindered.
And I believe there is always a good reason when the Father tells us to do something, and obedience is from our total trust, even if we don’t understand why. But like Pastor Rick Joyner wrote, I think we shouldn’t be naive on false brethren. Not only some unbelievers, but false brethren would distract, discourage, threaten or manipulate us. It’s for close walk with the Father as well as protection of our family, our house church, and the work He would do with us. May He give us the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him and our eyes of understanding be enlightened.
Have a bliss!
I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. (Romans 12:1~2)
How are you? Hope you had or are having a good day, today?
In this February, my sister and brother-in-law in California went to a vet for a regular medical check-up of our doggie girl, Honey. Before that, they found out something hard around her mamma, and the vet recommended a surgery to remove it. According to his report, mammary masses in dogs are 50% benign vs. 50% malignant. And he said even if it turns out to be benign, it’s safe to remove it. Before they made a decision on surgery, they wanted to go to another vet who was helpful in the last urgent care a few weeks ago. He is a Korean American and is also a pastor. They got to know him through their elder in their church home group. One night before they went to the vet, I prayed for Honey girl, and heard the Father say, “Her tumor is not malignant.” But then, after my sister came back from the second vet, she texted me to share an update, “The vet said her tumor is malignant. If she didn’t get a surgery to remove it, it would spread fast. And usually, dogs with malignant tumor lives 6 months to 1 year only. But with a surgery, they can live 3~4 years more. I don’t want her to die that soon.” Me, neither. Initially I didn’t like the idea of getting her an open surgery so that I shared my opinion that I would rather let the nature run its course. But with my sister’s report from the second vet, I agreed with her. Anyway, now Honey girl is under my sister and brother-in-law’s care and authority, so that I should respect their decision, no matter what. Yet, I was so confused, as I heard the Father say otherwise on her tumor. I thought to myself, “Did I hear Him wrong?” One night, I said to Him, “Honey has a cancer, the vet said, You know…” Again, He said, “Her tumor is not malignant.” I didn’t share it with my sister, though I heard it twice. Later a night before the surgery in California, my sister lost her sleep, too worried about Honey girl. So, she called me via FaceTime to ask me to pray for her. While we had a conversation, I got to know more background on the vet’s report. He only touched Honey’s mammary tumor with his hand. From his experience, he said with confidence that the tumor seemed to be malignant. But only after the surgery and biopsy, we would know for sure. So, I got to know it was his opinion only.
And when my sister kept worrying about Honey, I blurted out, “Her tumor is not malignant! Don’t worry.”
And she said, “How do you know? Did God say that to you?”
I only nodded.
And she went on to say, “Why don’t I hear Him? How can I hear His voice? Should I be baptized in the Holy Spirit to hear Him?” She has been longing for the Holy Spirit baptism, since the spirit of depression was cast out in early January this year. And I encouraged her to keep longing for the Holy Spirit baptism.
I said to her, “No, even the donkey in the Old Testament heard (saw) what God said (showed). Before the Holy Spirit baptism, you can still hear His voice.”
Our conversation wasn’t long, as she wanted to go back to bed. Yet, I was grateful to the Father, as we had a chance to talk about hearing His voice, and my sister started to have a hunger for it.
Later, Honey got a surgery. Like the Father promised to me, her recovery was very fast, and now my sister said that she is even more stronger and healthier than before the surgery. We are all grateful for His goodness. And in about 10 days after her surgery, my sister texted me, to share a good news, “Honey’s tumor turned out to be benign! Indeed, she didn’t have a cancer.” And I could sense how happy she was with the report. So was I. From this incident, I learned the lesson. Even if experts or experienced people say something, God is always right and we must listen to Him. I lacked in confidence, wondering whether I heard Him wrong. And we all make mistakes in hearing His voice. Yet He is kind, and is willing to give confirmation, if we would need it. So I must always ask Him confirmation for important decisions. And I was also grateful, as my sister became really interested in and hungry for listening to His voice. So, later I had a chance to explain to her more via FaceTime.
I said to her that the Holy Spirit baptism came only after Jesus was ascended. (Though I couldn’t remember and quote the Scriptures at that time, they are as below:
Nevertheless I tell you the truth. It is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I depart, I will send Him to you. (John 16:7)
The Holy Spirit Promised (Acts 1:4~5)
And being assembled together with them, He commanded them not to depart from Jerusalem, but to wait for the Promise of the Father, “which,” He said, “you have heard from Me; for John truly baptized with water, but you shall be baptized with the Holy Spirit not many days from now.”)
So, it tells us we can hear His voice even before the Holy Spirit baptism. Adam and Eve had communion with God in Eden. Abraham, David, Solomon, Samuel, etc. in the Old Testament were not baptized in the Holy Spirit, yet they talked to and listened to Him.
And I encouraged her to start to talk to Him, instead of saying to herself. If she thinks to herself, “what shall I cook for dinner?” she would say to the Father instead, “Father, what shall I cook for our dinner?” I encouraged her to try to talk to Him or think of Him every minute, and pause Him to hear Him. And His ways of speaking to us is limitless.
Then, she said, “Oh, now I think they were His voice. There were two cases.” She went on to explain them. She used to complain of her husband’s snoring horribly every night. In the middle of the night, she often left him, and went to a guest room to get sleep. He didn’t like her leaving him alone, to go to and sleep in other room. One night, when she heard him snore and tried to go to other room, a question came to her, “Do you want to sleep and live alone or do you want to sleep next to your healthy husband and live long together?” Without asking herself where this question came from, she simply answered, “The latter.” Amazingly, since that night, she was able to sleep next to the terrific snorer, without complaints. She never moved to other room since then. It simply reminded me of Sister Margaret’s story, and I shared it with my sister. Many years before her husband, Pastor Fred passed away, she used to complain of his keeping many stuffs in a room. She wanted to throw them away. One day, when she complained in her heart of his keeping so many things, the Lord said to her, “Do you want Me to take him away then?” And she said, “No, Lord, I don’t want You to do that!”
Another story of my sister was from many years ago when she and her husband had a big fight while driving. She yelled at her husband. At that time, our oldest sister was sitting at the back seat in their car. After their fight, when her husband was not around, the oldest sister said to her, “When I saw you yell at him, I was able to see what I did to my husband. It reminded me of my yelling at him. And it also reminded me of what our mother did to her husband. I repented of my wrongdoing.” Since then, she didn’t yell at her husband, but tried to calm down.
I was amazed to hear her stories. I already heard the second story of her, but it was my first time to hear her first story that the question from the Father came to her. So, I said to her that it was His question that changed everything. And He also used other people to talk to us, and He used our oldest sister to speak to her. Those two experiences really changed her. Not only her, in the second story, He also convicted our oldest sister of her transgression, and made her repent. His ways are marvelous.
Friend, I hope my writings have been used for our Father to speak to you personally and timely. :) Even if not, I’m glad to share my sister’ & Honey’s story. Again, our Father is meek and humble so that He cares for us and He even cares for our doggie girl. And He longs for communion with us. It’s my prayer that we long for fellowship and friendship with Him, and talking to and listening to Him becomes our breathing.
Have a bliss!
Lord, what is man, that You take knowledge of him?
Have you ever thought that our God the Father is humble? Pastor John Fenn said in one of his teachings that as Jesus and the Holy Spirit are meek and lowly in heart, our God the Father is also meek and lowly in heart. I understand that Jesus is the express image of His (the Father’s) person (Hebrews 1:3), yet I never thought the Father God enthroned in the heavenly place is also meek and lowly in heart. As I often thought of the Father’s majesty and greatness, I never pictured Him meek and humble. Thus Pastor John’s mentioning it enlightened me.
Then, in a week or two, I came to read Psalms 113, and the verses 4~6 came to me as Rhema words:
The Lord is high above all nations,
His glory above the heavens.
Who is like the Lord our God,
Who dwells on high,
Who humbles Himself to behold
The things that are in the heavens and in the earth?
I do not know how many times I read this chapter in the past, but it was the first time that I read God who humbles Himself to behold the things that are in the heavens and in the earth. Indeed, I got to find out the Scripture that confirms His meekness. And I looked up EnduringWord.com, the online commentary by Pastor David Guzik, and read below:
Who humbles Himself to behold: When we understand the greatness of God, His interest and care for creation (especially mankind) is remarkable. Here the psalmist shared the idea of David in Psalm 8:4: What is man that You are mindful of him, and the son of man that You visit him? Psalm 144:3 has a similar sense of amazement.
i. “God’s loftiness can never be adequately measured, unless His condescension is taken into account; and His condescension never sufficiently wondered at, unless His loftiness is felt.” (Maclaren)
ii. “What amazes the psalmist is that God is exalted so high that he has to stoop low to see not only the earth but also the heavens, and yet at the same time he cares for the lowly.” (Boice)
iii. “Heathen philosophers could not believe that the great God was observant of the small events of human history; they pictured him as abiding in serene indifference to all the wants and woes of his creatures.” (Spurgeon)
iv. “If it be such condescension for God to behold things in heaven and earth, what an amazing condescension was it for the Son of God to come from heaven to earth and take our nature upon him, that he might seek and save them that were lost! Here indeed he humbled himself.” (Henry, cited in Spurgeon)
Friend, isn’t this amazing? In verse 4, it says “His glory is above the heavens.” So, in order to behold the things even in heaven, He should humble Himself. How much more for Him to behold you and me on this earth? Not only beholding us, but He cares for every single detail of us. He knows what foods we like, what color we like, what music we like and what our hearts’ desires are. Of course, He knows our needs. Imagine there is a CEO in a big multinational company. Imagine that he is interested in each and every employee in his company, including outsourced employees who clean pantry, restroom, and so forth, and he makes friends with a janitor. He knows the janitor’s name and asks him how his family is doing, knowing the names of his family members. How would you describe the CEO? I don’t know whether there would be such a CEO in this world. The authority and power of our God is beyond compare, yet He humbles Himself, to see us and cares for us.
After I read Psalms 113 and mediated on it, I got to respect our Father even more. Recalling the days when He satisfied my desires in some foods, home-finding, and so on, I realized He was not only kind, but very humble. Then, how much more should we humble ourselves?
One night when I worshipped the Father, and listened to Him, I was marveled and grateful for His sharing part of His plan for me. Just like King David said, I felt what is man that You are mindful of me. And I thanked Him for His kindness. Then, He said, “You’re My friend. So, I shared that.” What an honor to be His friend! He humbled Himself, and called me His friend. If a CEO or a president of a nation would call me friend, I would feel so honored. And the Creator of the universe and God the Father calls me friend. I felt it simply wonderful to be His friend, and this is possible because of His meekness. Friend, He is no respecter of person, and He calls you His friend, too. It’s my desire that you and I learn His meekness, humble ourselves and serve others, just like Jesus, His Beloved Son did.
Have a bliss!
The Lord looks from heaven;
How are you? Hope you had or are having a good day, today?
Today, I would like to start by sharing March Newsletter from Pastor John Fenn in The Church Without Walls International. He talked about people’s asking him bank crisis, and he shared some of what the Lord shared with him. It echoed what the Father gave me in my heart.
I did not want to write what we should prepare, as it would be different for each individual, and each and every one of us should ask the Lord what we should do. And I do not want to be fearmongering like many in the world and even many in Christian circle. Just like Pastor John shared Peace from the Lord, I believe the key is Peace from our Lord. In the past years, I used to encourage my family and friends to prepare for economic disasters to come. Yet the Lord did not give me a heart to write about them. And I also learned that it might simply trigger unnecessary fear rather than give peace. Now, the economic disaster seems to start to surface, and I think I would rather write what our hearts should be, not what we should prepare. I believe each and every one of us is in different situation. So, we shouldn’t try to know and do what others would do, but ask the Lord about preparation. He is a personal God, and He knows what you need and He will guide you when you ask Him. I wrote in a blog some time ago that I stored up some rice, listening to prophecy and my friend’s suggestion. But the rice started to have bugs inside, and I gave them away to a missionary’s family before they had more bugs. As I intended to share what I stored, I did not regret it at all. But I learned the timing and the method were not right. Much later, in last November, I moved to my new place. Whenever I thought to myself, “Should I store up some foods or some necessities?” He said, “Don’t store them up, as you will be moving to a new location. Rather, you buy them to be delivered to other children of Mine, if you want to store any.” (Speaking of a personal God Who knows our need, I would like to share my niece’ story. One day when she went to office supplies store to buy a notebook, she heard the Father say, “Buy more.” But, she didn’t like the idea of storing up stuffs, especially when her room didn’t have much space. So, she didn’t buy more. Later she got to know that model of notebook, her favorite was discontinued. He knew the producer would not make that specific notebook any more. So, He told her to buy more, as He also knew she likes that specific notebook. The reason for His telling her to stock up was different. Of course, we all have our free will for choice, but we get the consequences accordingly. I know this notebook stuff is not a matter of sin, but we may have some kind of regrets from our choice, if disobedient. Second best is not the very best.)
In this February, the Father said to me, “The economic confusion is at hand! Just do what I tell you to do. Have no fear. Be light!” Then, about 10 days later, He said that again, and He added, “The economic confusion is coming. Do not fear, when you hear the news. As I’m with you, be in peace.”
Yet, when I watched the news on bank run in the USA and Europe, I thought to myself, “Should I withdraw some of my money from my bank account?” And I sought the Lord for His guidance. And He told me to give offerings rather than withdraw some of it. And He said, “Did I ever fail you, when you gave Me back hilariously?” He used the word, hilariously, as I learned the word “cheerfully” in English bible is “hilariously” in Greek. Again, He is a personal God so that He used that word. And He also made me realize that I had fear so that I wanted to withdraw money. In His grace, I was able to give offerings with a cheerful heart. He answered my prayer that I would do what He tells me to do willingly, cheerfully, pleasantly, not grudgingly.” Friend, if you ask Him what you should do, He may not tell you to pile up 5 years of canned foods, if you should move to another location like me or if your priority is not piling up supplies.
One day, I came to find a David Wilkerson’s sermon, A Craving for the Presence of the Lord. When I listened to it, to my amazement, I heard him talk about his book related to economic disaster that I debated buying at that time. Yet more importantly, he talked about what our hearts should be. From the sermon title, I didn’t expect him to talk about it, but it really gave me much comfort, especially before difficult times come. I really wanted to share with you both his sermon and Pastor John’s monthly newsletter, as my heart desire is not to provoke fear, but to give peace and encourage us to seek fellowship with our Father more than before. This is not to tickle your ears, but to prepare our hearts and have His supernatural comfort and peace and discern the times and seasons. Our Lord is coming. He is coming again to reign on earth, but before that, He will catch away His pure bride. So, we wait eagerly for Him, not fearing, but doing the Father’s business, feeding the poor and sharing the gospel.
One morning, I read Proverbs 23 and the verse 4~5 came to me.
Do not overwork to be rich;
Because of your own understanding, cease!
Will you set your eyes on that which is not?
For riches certainly make themselves wings;
They fly away like an eagle toward heaven.
We should be diligent and work with integrity. Our Father loves sincere, faithful and diligent workers. Yet, the Scripture says, “do not overwork to be rich from our own understanding.” Overwork for greed is not His will. Neither is doing something from our own understanding. We are merely a human. We do not know when He would take our lives away here on earth. I think it’s first and foremost important to be in the secret closet and ask Him and walk with Him, as He designed us to do. As we commune with Him, and spend more time in His Presence, we will exude the fragrance of Christ and carry His Peace. People would ask us where our peace come from. Then, we reply to them with meekness and fear of the Lord. Friend, it’s my prayer that He gives us wisdom and discretion to know times and seasons and give us peace, joy and hope for our Bridegroom. The marriage supper of the Lamb is near and we do the Father’s business daily till then.
Have a bliss!
But whoever listens to me will dwell safely,