How are you? Hope you had or are having a good day, today?
In this February, my sister and brother-in-law in California went to a vet for a regular medical check-up of our doggie girl, Honey. Before that, they found out something hard around her mamma, and the vet recommended a surgery to remove it. According to his report, mammary masses in dogs are 50% benign vs. 50% malignant. And he said even if it turns out to be benign, it’s safe to remove it. Before they made a decision on surgery, they wanted to go to another vet who was helpful in the last urgent care a few weeks ago. He is a Korean American and is also a pastor. They got to know him through their elder in their church home group. One night before they went to the vet, I prayed for Honey girl, and heard the Father say, “Her tumor is not malignant.” But then, after my sister came back from the second vet, she texted me to share an update, “The vet said her tumor is malignant. If she didn’t get a surgery to remove it, it would spread fast. And usually, dogs with malignant tumor lives 6 months to 1 year only. But with a surgery, they can live 3~4 years more. I don’t want her to die that soon.” Me, neither. Initially I didn’t like the idea of getting her an open surgery so that I shared my opinion that I would rather let the nature run its course. But with my sister’s report from the second vet, I agreed with her. Anyway, now Honey girl is under my sister and brother-in-law’s care and authority, so that I should respect their decision, no matter what. Yet, I was so confused, as I heard the Father say otherwise on her tumor. I thought to myself, “Did I hear Him wrong?” One night, I said to Him, “Honey has a cancer, the vet said, You know…” Again, He said, “Her tumor is not malignant.” I didn’t share it with my sister, though I heard it twice. Later a night before the surgery in California, my sister lost her sleep, too worried about Honey girl. So, she called me via FaceTime to ask me to pray for her. While we had a conversation, I got to know more background on the vet’s report. He only touched Honey’s mammary tumor with his hand. From his experience, he said with confidence that the tumor seemed to be malignant. But only after the surgery and biopsy, we would know for sure. So, I got to know it was his opinion only.
And when my sister kept worrying about Honey, I blurted out, “Her tumor is not malignant! Don’t worry.”
And she said, “How do you know? Did God say that to you?”
I only nodded.
And she went on to say, “Why don’t I hear Him? How can I hear His voice? Should I be baptized in the Holy Spirit to hear Him?” She has been longing for the Holy Spirit baptism, since the spirit of depression was cast out in early January this year. And I encouraged her to keep longing for the Holy Spirit baptism.
I said to her, “No, even the donkey in the Old Testament heard (saw) what God said (showed). Before the Holy Spirit baptism, you can still hear His voice.”
Our conversation wasn’t long, as she wanted to go back to bed. Yet, I was grateful to the Father, as we had a chance to talk about hearing His voice, and my sister started to have a hunger for it.
Later, Honey got a surgery. Like the Father promised to me, her recovery was very fast, and now my sister said that she is even more stronger and healthier than before the surgery. We are all grateful for His goodness. And in about 10 days after her surgery, my sister texted me, to share a good news, “Honey’s tumor turned out to be benign! Indeed, she didn’t have a cancer.” And I could sense how happy she was with the report. So was I. From this incident, I learned the lesson. Even if experts or experienced people say something, God is always right and we must listen to Him. I lacked in confidence, wondering whether I heard Him wrong. And we all make mistakes in hearing His voice. Yet He is kind, and is willing to give confirmation, if we would need it. So I must always ask Him confirmation for important decisions. And I was also grateful, as my sister became really interested in and hungry for listening to His voice. So, later I had a chance to explain to her more via FaceTime.
I said to her that the Holy Spirit baptism came only after Jesus was ascended. (Though I couldn’t remember and quote the Scriptures at that time, they are as below:
Nevertheless I tell you the truth. It is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I depart, I will send Him to you. (John 16:7)
The Holy Spirit Promised (Acts 1:4~5)
And being assembled together with them, He commanded them not to depart from Jerusalem, but to wait for the Promise of the Father, “which,” He said, “you have heard from Me; for John truly baptized with water, but you shall be baptized with the Holy Spirit not many days from now.”)
So, it tells us we can hear His voice even before the Holy Spirit baptism. Adam and Eve had communion with God in Eden. Abraham, David, Solomon, Samuel, etc. in the Old Testament were not baptized in the Holy Spirit, yet they talked to and listened to Him.
And I encouraged her to start to talk to Him, instead of saying to herself. If she thinks to herself, “what shall I cook for dinner?” she would say to the Father instead, “Father, what shall I cook for our dinner?” I encouraged her to try to talk to Him or think of Him every minute, and pause Him to hear Him. And His ways of speaking to us is limitless.
Then, she said, “Oh, now I think they were His voice. There were two cases.” She went on to explain them. She used to complain of her husband’s snoring horribly every night. In the middle of the night, she often left him, and went to a guest room to get sleep. He didn’t like her leaving him alone, to go to and sleep in other room. One night, when she heard him snore and tried to go to other room, a question came to her, “Do you want to sleep and live alone or do you want to sleep next to your healthy husband and live long together?” Without asking herself where this question came from, she simply answered, “The latter.” Amazingly, since that night, she was able to sleep next to the terrific snorer, without complaints. She never moved to other room since then. It simply reminded me of Sister Margaret’s story, and I shared it with my sister. Many years before her husband, Pastor Fred passed away, she used to complain of his keeping many stuffs in a room. She wanted to throw them away. One day, when she complained in her heart of his keeping so many things, the Lord said to her, “Do you want Me to take him away then?” And she said, “No, Lord, I don’t want You to do that!”
Another story of my sister was from many years ago when she and her husband had a big fight while driving. She yelled at her husband. At that time, our oldest sister was sitting at the back seat in their car. After their fight, when her husband was not around, the oldest sister said to her, “When I saw you yell at him, I was able to see what I did to my husband. It reminded me of my yelling at him. And it also reminded me of what our mother did to her husband. I repented of my wrongdoing.” Since then, she didn’t yell at her husband, but tried to calm down.
I was amazed to hear her stories. I already heard the second story of her, but it was my first time to hear her first story that the question from the Father came to her. So, I said to her that it was His question that changed everything. And He also used other people to talk to us, and He used our oldest sister to speak to her. Those two experiences really changed her. Not only her, in the second story, He also convicted our oldest sister of her transgression, and made her repent. His ways are marvelous.
Friend, I hope my writings have been used for our Father to speak to you personally and timely. :) Even if not, I’m glad to share my sister’ & Honey’s story. Again, our Father is meek and humble so that He cares for us and He even cares for our doggie girl. And He longs for communion with us. It’s my prayer that we long for fellowship and friendship with Him, and talking to and listening to Him becomes our breathing.
Have a bliss!
Lord, what is man, that You take knowledge of him?