Today, I would like to share more as to how God worked over, through, and for our my family, after the broken relationship was restored.
On last Christmas Eve, my niece shared her dream on her previous international church where she had internship for a couple of years. She recently left it, after she was disappointed with the leadership and their focus on becoming a mega church and a celebrity pastor. She got the confirmation from the Lord to leave and not to return. Yet she was debating as to whether it would be appropriate for her to share honestly with the ex-pastor what made her leave the church. Then, she had a dream, and she shared it over our lunch for interpretation. Amazingly, He used me to help her interpret it, and at the end of the day, she chose not to say anything to the ex-pastor. Since then, in addition to the dream, she asked about something and asked my thought, and she said, “Thank you. You’re like my every day teacher. I wouldn’t take it for granted that I have family to share things with and ask to pray for me.” With her words and attitude, I felt she was really transformed after the near death experience and the encounter-with-God moment in the hospital that I wrote a few week ago. She and I have 11 years of age difference only. When I was a university student, she was still in an elementary school. And I used to bring her to cinema to show her Disney show, and we used to go to theme park for kids. But, when she grew up, we were more like sisters or friends rather than aunty-niece relationship. Sometimes it’s good and fun, but I used to think she has no respect for me, and she is not teachable. But, I noticed that she really meant to ask my opinion, seeking help on her dream interpretation related to her ex-pastor, even after we met and talked about it on Christmas Eve. Not only that, but when we met on New Year Eve, she stopped during our conversation, to write down what I was sharing, in her phone, saying “Oh, I must write this down, not to forget.” She never did that before. I was marveled to see Him change her character.
While I had a blessed time with her here on two Eves in a row at the end of last year, my sister and brother-in-law in California visited our oldest sister, my niece’s mother in South America for about a month. My sister in California had a difficult time with depression since she had a menopause in last summer and was infected with the coronavirus in the fall. She had no appetite and lost a lot of weight. In that difficult season, she became grateful to our oldest sister, as she took a time daily, to pray for her and to encourage her. And our oldest sister invited them to come over, as she wanted to cook for them. They had a great time together, and my older sister was grateful for the love of our oldest sister. In both sides of the world, we thanked God for His goodness. My brother-in-law used to say to my sister that our oldest sister’s love toward her younger sisters is genuine, though she used to have challenges in relationship with our mother and unforgiving heart toward her for some years in the past. My sister and I agreed with his observation. More so as she was helped and loved by the oldest sister, during the most difficult season in her life.
When the Lord opened my heart toward my oldest sister as well as my niece, I thought that she would be in the middle of being transformed, as all of us are. Listening to Sister Margaret’s testimonies on her anger problem, legalism, disobedience to her husband and so on in the past, I thought my oldest sister would be as mature as Sister Margaret, if she were in her 90’s like her. As time goes by, she would be transformed like Sister Margaret. We all need time and our Father is patient. And I thought even if she turned out to be unchanged, I chose to be meek and silent, knowing He is my defender. I thought to myself that I would learn meekness like Moses: He didn’t defend himself against the accusation of his brother and sister, Aaron and Miriam.
One day last year, my oldest sister texted me and said, “I regret that I treated mom badly for all those years.” I didn’t want to put a guilt trip on her at all, when she shared it with me. But I wanted to encourage her. So, I said to her, “No worries. You have eternity to make up for it. :)”. And she said, “Amen!” In fact, her attitude toward our mom was also changed like my niece’s, as if they got to realize how precious she is to us. Recently, she used to say often to mom via FaceTime, “Mom, thank you for giving birth to me. I love you so much!”
And the story of His love and power didn’t end there. After my sister and brother-in-law came back to California on the first week of January, she shared the challenging life of the oldest sister as a missionary in one of the poorest countries in South America, and she felt supernatural health and joy in the oldest sister, despite the challenges. Then, she shared a marvelous testimony. When she was severely depressed last year, I knew it was not only a hormonal thing (i.e. natural), but spiritual. And I felt she needs deliverance. Yet, I didn’t say anything to her, but asked my monthly zoom meeting members including my pastor and his wife in Singapore, and two friends of mine in Singapore and Korea to pray for her, sharing it would be partially spiritual. Though I asked their prayers for her, I knew, in my heart, I often criticized her for her self-centeredness, including self-pity, rather than compassionate toward her. I was reminded of the late Pastor Neville Johnson’s story:
Whenever he preached in church on Sundays, a man under demonic influence stood up and made a scene, criticizing him. Pastor Neville didn’t say anything until he knew he was filled with the Father’s love toward that man. Then, on one Sunday, the man stoop up again, criticizing him. This time Pastor Neville felt His love fill his heart. Only then did he say to the man (actually to the evil spirit in him), “Be quiet!” Amazingly, he couldn’t speak any word from that moment on, and he became mute for a month or so and was delivered.
So, knowing my criticizing heart toward my sister, I chose not to say anything on her real issue to her, but to pray. One night I asked the Father to give me a compassionate heart toward her, and I prayed in tongue. Though I couldn’t understand what I was uttering in the Spirit, my eyes welled up with tears, and I felt it was what our Father would feel toward her. Then, another day, when I prayed in tongue for her, I heard Him say, “I will heal her.” I shared His words with her, when she was in Miami airport to transit to South America in last December.
Then, on the first week of January, she and her husband came back to California. One day before their departure from South America, our oldest sister arranged a meeting with a Korean missionary pastor there. He has a gift in casting out demons. Our oldest sister also knew her depression was spiritual, and she needs to be delivered. But she didn’t say anything to her younger sister on her plan, not to scare her. Then, the pastor prayed, and my sister saw or heard a demon come out of her ear. (She didn’t want to recall that moment and describe it in details so that I didn’t ask her, neither.) Her husband seemed to be shocked to witness it. Though she was peaceful on that day, back at home, she heard the demon knock at her, and she rebuked it in Jesus’ name. And she felt something moving from her stomach to her chest, which is another demon (or demons) that should be cast out, too. The pastor has been praying for her on the phone almost daily since then, and we believe our Lord would set her free in His time.
Listening to all this marvelous story of our Father, I repented. I repented of lack of my love toward my sisters. I tend to criticize them in my heart, not really knowing what they went through nor having a compassionate heart toward them. Yet our oldest sister has the love and compassion and was desperate for her younger sister’s deliverance. So, she prayed together with her younger sister for many days, no matter what time she asked help. And the power of the Holy Spirit fell on my sister and a demon was cast out. Indeed, the goodness of our God led me into repentance again. Since then, my heart was changed, and I thought I would intercede for them with His love.
Writing this down, I was reminded of Pastor John Fenn’s teaching. He quoted Acts 1:8 and said Jesus’ commandment to His disciples was Jerusalem first and then, it extends from Jerusalem to Judea and then to Samaria and to the end of the earth:
“But you shall receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you shall be witnesses to Me in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth.”
He went on to say His commandment is that we should look after our family first. I believe our Father wants me to forgive, reconcile and love my own family first, before I would start to do His will in extended areas. We can’t love others, while we don’t love our own family. Though I went through challenging years in my family relationship for the past few years, I’m so grateful to our Father. Indeed, when He restored our relationship, it is even better than before. I will share more stories at a later point in time, as to how He brought more blessings after our relationship was restored first.
Have a bliss!
A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another. (John 13:34~35)
How are you? I’m well.
If you’ve been reading my blogs from the beginning, you might recall I shared some of the dreams that I thought were from the Lord. Looking back at the last couple of years, I was amazed by His goodness.
I received many dreams from the Lord in 2020, when the pandemic started. During the day, I wasn’t able to go out even for a cafe, as in the beginning, the alert was high nationwide and I was very conservative for mom. At that time, I lived in a studio type apartment, and got to understand why He downloaded so many dreams in that season. I think I shared the story long ago that I read a James Golls’ book, “Dream Language.” Through the book, I got to know the Lord started to meet his wife in a night season, as she had no space with many little kids in her hands, while Pastor James often traveled for ministry. She was exhausted, yet had a hunger for God. And our kind Father said to her that He would meet her in a night season. So, I got to understand He also wanted to meet me in a night season, as I had no space in that small studio type room with mom 24/7, especially in the pandemic. I shared many dreams in my blogs at that time. Interestingly enough, since I moved to one bedroom apartment and had a living room where I was able to pray alone, in the fall 2021, I’ve seldom had the dreams that I think were from the Lord. I didn’t feel upset nor longed for having much revelation from the dreams, in order to write blogs, as I think everything is done in His will. Yet, I was amazed to see how good our Father is.
Then, last November, I came to read Lana Vawser’s latest words in my email box:
My Trailblazing Daughters Are Rising!!
I heard the Lord say:
“I will meet you in the night hours and you will receive a powerful impartation from Me that will release to you all that you need to run and continue to run with Me down these trailblazing pathways.”
I watched as daughters of God all across the world were receiving MAJOR impartations, some as they slept in their dreams, others awakened by the Holy Spirit in the night, but these impartations were bringing SUDDEN transformations within them. These impartations of fire, of His vision and Word were bringing monumental shifts – these shifts I saw were lifechanging marker moments that leave you forever changed.
So I wondered whether He would give me dreams again. As I really didn’t long for having dreams much, but rather visions, I thought I would rather be awakened in the night, by praying to and praising Him. Then, on Christmas Eve, when my niece shared her writing down her dreams even in the middle of the night, I thought I must have the same attitude, i.e. not taking His dreams lightly, but respecting them. Then, like I shared last week, I had a dream since I decided to get up, no matter when He would wake me up. And I was also able to get up by His nudge. Yet there was a challenge. My mom and I shared a big room, while I turned off the heater in a small room. When I moved to my new place in last November, I thought I would not leave her alone especially at night, due to her dementia and the new environment to her. As the bed in the big room was not large enough for two of us to flip during sleep, later I decided to sleep on the floor with a cushioned mat. Then, whenever I got up around 4~5am, and went out to the living room, in order to pray, my mom got up soon, came to the living room and turned on TV. If I would move back to our bedroom to be alone, she would also chase after me. Being discouraged after all my effort to get up in His time, I thought I might start to sleep in the small room. I had peace in my heart, thinking He would protect mom and she wouldn’t be confused or scared, sleeping alone. Yet I blurted out, “Father, You should really protect and comfort her. I did everything to get up when You woke me up.” After my decision and prayer, I got to know her thought, as she always spoke her thoughts out loud, not realizing I overheard her. So, I got to know that she preferred sleeping alone in that room, but she appreciated my thoughts to care for her. And she went on to say to herself, “She was worried about me. Now it’s ok, as it’s been a while since we moved here.” God is so good that He comforted me through her monologue I overheard.
So, I started to sleep in the small room, and I couldn’t thank Him enough. It has been ages since I had my own space alone with Him. Sometimes mom got up in the middle of the night during my prayer, and opened the door of my room to check me out. Then, I just pretended to sleep, as the light in my room was off except a very dim light. Since I started to sleep alone in my own room, the time He woke me up was moved up to 1~3am from 4~5am. So I had to go to bed early, to have enough sleep before getting up at that hour. On January 9th, I became awake at 1:28am, and after praying for a while, I went back to sleep, and I had a dream:
I seemed to be in a hotel at the beach in a foreign country. It looked like the hotel’s outdoor pool, and interestingly, there was a lion in the pool. Yet I saw a few people swimming with the lion in it. Later, I also jumped into the pool and swam. I found out the lion didn’t harm those who were in the water, including me. Then, later at night, my mom tried to go to the pool alone, while there was none, except the lion. Then, I stopped her, saying it would be dangerous.
In another scene, I was observing a laboratory. A female employee in a white gown seemed to study whether a lion in their lab can be domesticated and friendly. She gave treat to the lion through the bar in the cage. The lion seemed to be friendly, smiling. His countenance with the smile even looked hilarious. Yet I saw his big claws in his two paws around the bar, as if they were highlighted to me. And I thought to myself that he might turn out to be very dangerous yet the employee seemed to treat him lightly with no fear.
When I awoke, I felt the lion was the Lord, not an evil force and swimming in the pool would be moving in the Holy Spirit. Yet, I couldn’t interpret the whole dream. I did wonder why I stopped my mom, as the Lion was the Lord, not the enemy. And I couldn’t interpret the laboratory dream at all. I simply wrote down the dream and didn’t share it with anyone. Then, in that evening, before going to bed, I was rereading a Rick Joyner’s book, “The Final Quest,” and continued reading from what I stopped the other night. Soon enough, I was marveled to read the conversation between Wisdom (the Lord) and Rick, and was able to interpret the dream He gave me earlier on that day:
“It is wisdom to love, and I could not be Wisdom if I did not love you. It is also wisdom to behold the kindness and the severity of God. It is wisdom to love Him and to fear Him. You are in deception if you do otherwise. This is the next lesson that you must learn,” he said with unmistakable earnestness.
“Just as there is a time to plant and a time to reap,” Wisdom continued, “there are times to adore the Lord, and there are times to honor Him with the greatest fear and respect. It is wisdom to know the time for each. True wisdom knows the times and seasons of God. I brought you here because it was time to worship the Lord in the glory of His love. This is what you needed the most after such a battle. I am now taking you to another place because it is time for you to worship Him in the fear of His judgment. Until you know both, there is a danger that we can be separated from each other.” “Do you mean that if I had stayed back there in that glorious worship I would have lost you?” I asked in disbelief. “Yes. I would have always visited with you when I could, but we would have rarely crossed paths. Although it is hard to leave such glory and peace, that is not the whole revelation of the King. He is both a Lion and a Lamb. To the spiritual children, He is the Lamb. To the maturing, He is the Lion. To the fully mature, He is both the Lion and the Lamb. Again, I know you understand this, but you have known it primarily in your mind. Soon you will know it in your heart, for you are about to experience the judgment seat of Christ.”
Now, I was able to understand the dream was talking about the fear of the Lord. I interpret my mom in the dream was not literally mom, but would represent the spiritual children, as I look after her as if I would be my mom’s own mom. In the dream, I stopped her from going to the pool, as the Lion might be a danger. And the Lion in the lab seemed to be friendly, but His claws were highlighted to me, implying He can be very powerful and dangerous.
Then, I asked the Father whether I would share this dream in my blog and share it with my niece, related to the pillow-talk-dream I shared last week. Then, on January 12th, I came to watch Pastor John Fenn’s latest video he posted the other night, What the Lord said: Judgement. I was marveled to hear him talk about judgement and felt He want me to share the dream, too. His weekly video is not always prophetic, but more on teaching. Yet that post is prophetic on His judgement on the body of Christ to come in this new season. And it echoed what I felt from the Lion dream. I’m sharing the link of Pastor John’s message. Hope this blesses you.
Friend, how many of us love to listen to the judgment of God and the severity of God? No matter whether we like it or not, He is our Judge and He judges both His church and the world. He is a Holy God, and we must have the fear of the Lord. The female employee in the lab in my dream came to my mind often, and I thought it really represents the way many in the body of Christ treats our King. The way we treat Him would not be limited to the way we worship only, but it would include how we live in our daily lives and how we treat others. Friend, it’s my prayer that we become fully mature and know the kindness and the severity of our God. He is the Lion and the Lamb!
Have a bliss!
The Lord reigns;
One day in December last year, I happened to read the words “Isaiah 33:6” in my notebook that I wrote down long ago, and I looked up the verse, curious. It says, “The fear of the LORD is His treasure.” Then, I began to wonder why fearing the LORD is “His” treasure, not “our” treasure. In some other verses on the fear of the LORD, I think those who get the benefit out of it are we, not He:
In the fear of the LORD is strong confidence (Pro. 14:26);
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom. (Pro. 1:7)
So, I did wonder why it’s His treasure, not ours. Yet, I didn’t want to look up commentary or any other resources to find out why, but chose to ask the Father. So I knelt down, and asked Him about it. I was certain He would let me know in His way, no matter when.
Then, later on one Sunday, my niece sent the link of a sermon she just listened to. It was the sermon of Pastor David Nthite, who was new to me. If I would paraphrase part of his sermon, God initiates the time to encounter us, not we. So, when He initiates it, we must respond to Him, even though it might be inconvenient time for us. For example, when we go to restaurant and start to eat, He might tell us to pray for someone. Then, we should go to restroom to take time to pray for him/her rather than eat. If He wakes us up in the middle of the night, we must get up. When I listened to this, it hit home timely. Last year, whenever I asked Him to wake me up, He did it faithfully. Even without an alarm, I was able to be wide awake from sleep. I was marveled to see how faithful He is. At one night, I was awake at 4am or so from the noise my mom unintentionally made, and it was exactly the time I asked Him to wake me up. Though He has been faithfully answering my prayers, I wasn’t faithful to Him. Many times, I simply went back to sleep, after being awake a little while. Or sometimes, my mom got up, too, so that I couldn’t have a quiet time alone. So, for the past few weeks, I didn’t even ask the Father to wake me up early. Then, when I listened to the sermon, I felt He would want me to be awake when He wants, even if it’s inconvenient time for me. So, I asked Him to wake me up and I would get up. In order to do that, I had to go to bed early. During the day, I tried not to be distracted by TV, mobile phone and so on. But, the night time on the bed was a pitfall to me. After finishing a day and being relaxed on my bed, I often watched YouTube, and so many videos on the news, cooking, dogs, music and so on caught my eyes. It made me go to sleep much later than I expected and made it hard for me to get up early. So, I tried not to watch many and went to bed not too late. Amazingly enough, He woke me up at around 5am. I suddenly became awake, after a dream was finished. So, I changed my clothes and prayed in the living room, kneeling down for a while and then sitting up on the sofa. Only then, was I reminded that He said to me the other day or so, “You’re My treasure. I will bless you.” (He meant barak in Hebrew :) I got to realize that I shut down my eyes from my phone early at the previous night, to get up early and answer His calling to encounter Him. And I got up early, though it was the time that I still wanted to continue sleeping. I did, as I wanted to revere Him and cherish the moment of encountering Him. So, I was reminded that He sees me as His treasure. It was the moment of revelation, and I got to understand why He said the fear of the LORD is His treasure, not ours. In addition, I was able to interpret the dream He gave me just before I woke up.
I seldom had dreams that I thought were from the Lord since the autumn 2021. But, that night when I asked the Father to wake me up early, and went to bed early, expecting His encounter with me, I had a dream where I would have a wedding. It seemed that one of my classmates in my middle school turned out to be my bridegroom. Since I got to know he is my bridegroom, I became affectionate to him, taking his arm. Then, he brought me to a hotel room where we would stay, after the wedding ceremony in the hotel banquet room. After we entered the room, I wanted to go to restroom. Then, I found out the restroom had a few separate toilets and they were dirty. I thought housekeeping was not done properly. Then, to my surprise, a friend of my bridegroom barged in the restroom to use one of the toilets. I was puzzled, and went out of the restroom. Then, I found out there were more friends of his in that room. Only then, did I see there are actually four bedrooms in our room and my bridegroom seemed to invite them to stay with us. At that moment, I was disappointed to know I couldn’t enjoy intimacy with my bridegroom. I woke up from the dream, and I felt the Lord speak to me through it. I was immediately able to interpret the dream, reminded of Pastor John Fenn’s sharing what Jesus said of pillow talk from his audio teaching and a weekly thought, “Focus & Jesus #2”:
He elaborated a bit and then said: “For instance. Often I will talk to a person something that is meant to be just between us. What you would call ‘pillow talk’, which isn’t intended to go outside the bedroom. I will tell them something I intended to be just between us, but they will call their friend and tell them what I said, or maybe over lunch share with a friend what I considered intimate and between us. Thus they have demonstrated they are not worthy of that level of intimacy, and I will stop talking to them (in that way) for a season…giving them an opportunity to seek out why their spirit was grieved when they shared it, which confuses them because they knew it came from me, yet not knowing why their spirit was grieved. That is why.”
“And they will wonder for a time why I have stopped talking to them intimately, though I will of course still share with them on other things. But few seek it out, which shows how they value Me and intimacy with Me, or lack thereof. Remember I said the value that you place on what you hear is how it is measured back to you*. If a person does not value what we have together, but cheapens it by sharing it with others, they show me the low value they place on Me and our time together.” (At this point, tears welled up in His eyes reflecting the passion with which He spoke.) *Mark 4:24-25
He had just opened up His heart to me and demonstrated an emotion that caught me totally off guard. I didn’t expect Him to be so…human. The fact He could speak intimate things between me and Him, and then do that with everyone else in the body of Christ as well, and then be so disappointed when we share what was intended to be just between Him and us, AND knowing that must happen all the time…was overwhelming.
There was silence between us for what seemed to be minutes, as I just stared at Him and He at me. Part of me wanted to hug Him, part of me wanted to fall at His feet and repent. Even today as I tell this visitation, which I’ve never told of it anywhere start to finish with all the details (and won’t so don’t ask), and even now am just telling a part of it, the weight of it sits upon me.
In his audio teaching, Pastor John shared his experience where he felt grieved in his spirit, after he shared what the Lord didn’t mean to share. I was also reminded of my own experience like his. So, after the dream and the prayer, I got to understand He wanted me to have the fear of the LORD and to keep pillow talk to myself. I think it’s His giving me precaution, before He shares something in a new season. Even though the relationship with my niece has been restored and I would feel like sharing what He would show me with her or some other friends, I should revere Him and cherish our intimate relationship. I think if we are married, we can share what He said with our spouse, as a married couple are one. Other than that, I think we must learn to cherish what He wants us to keep to ourselves only.
I became in awe and grateful to see how our Father answer my prayer and teach me why the fear of the LORD is His treasure, in His unique way. Friend, I wouldn’t share and post this, if He wants to keep it as pillow talk. But, if you’re reading this now, I think I had peace to go ahead.
Friend, it’s my prayer that we desire encounter with Him even when it’s inconvenient time for us, and we desire to be His treasure, by revering and honoring Him more than anything and more than anyone.
Have a bliss!
A talebearer reveals secrets,
How are you? I’m well.
Last month in my previous blog, Goodness of God 3 I wrote that I saw God love each and every one of His children, when He used me to touch my niece with His love. It made me open my heart to her.
In a week or so after that episode, I read a few chapters of the book of Romans. I wanted to read the Romans, as I was rereading a Watchman Nee’s book, The Normal Christian Life and it explains the truth written in the book of Romans. So, I wanted to read it, while I was rereading the Watchman’s book. Then, the verse was highlighted to me as Rhema:
Or do you despise the riches of His goodness, forbearance, and longsuffering, not knowing that the goodness of God leads you to repentance? (Romans 2:4)
It did speak to me, as I indeed repented of hardening my heart toward my niece for so long. But when I saw His love toward all of His children including her, I thought I must have His heart toward her, too. And I thanked Him, as He didn’t force me to open my heart, but He made me willingly do that. Since then, I prayed to Him, “Father, I want to do everything that You would tell me to do, willingly, pleasantly and hilariously. I don’t want to obey you, grudgingly or unwillingly. Please make my heart like Yours. And I know it’s possible as Christ is in me. Thank You, Father, as You gave me Christ and He lives in me.” And I understand it is possible only when He and I become one. In fact, everything was already given in Christ and He lives in us.
So, later on Christmas Eve, my niece came over to my place, and she shared a wonderful testimony, which I will share with you today. I’d like to ask you to buckle up, as you would be blown away. :)
In June 2020, she finished 40 day of fasting. It was Jesus’ fasting, i.e. drinking water only. After 40 days, she couldn’t even eat porridge but vomit whatever she tried to eat. Even drinking water was hard to her, after fasting. She had no strength. (She has been living in a 2 story house where I grew up. My mom gave the house to my oldest sister, and my niece has been living there with her room upstairs.) One day, when she tried to go downstairs, she stumbled on the stair and rolled herself, hitting her head and body all over the stairs. She lost her consciousness. The previous night before the accident, the Lord told her to unlock the door, the way from the garden to indoors. So she did, not knowing why. Then, after the accident, my oldest sister in South America tried to reach her daughter, my niece, but of course my niece couldn’t answer her calls and texts, unconscious. In a few days, my sister asked someone in Korea to call 911. (At that time, we didn’t talk to one another for 2.5 years.) So 911 team came into the garden, after using a truck with a ladder attached, to climb a wall, and found the door inside left unlocked. Getting inside, they found my niece lied on the floor with her urine & blood all over the floor, and they thought she was killed by someone. She was unconscious for 8 days there, after the 40 days of fasting, but still alive! In South America, way before this accident, God showed my sister a vision, and said, “I will heal your daughter.” At that time, she had no clue as to what would be coming. Later she got to know her daughter’s status from the doctors in Korea. She had holes in her lung, heart and esophagus, and they said she needed a surgery immediately. But my sister didn’t allow them to do surgery. She believed what the Lord spoke to her through the vision, i.e. Rhema. They were puzzled, though later she got one surgery on her thigh for skin graft. To their utter amazement, in a later check-up, they found out the holes in her organs were completely gone. There was no trace of them at all. They said it could not be medically justified. In about 2 weeks, one of her doctors somehow felt that he should take a risk of giving her shots of steroids when she was still in coma. Then only after one shot, she became conscious. But she had to be in hospital for 3 months, as half of her face was numb and she wasn’t able to walk. When she was there, she didn’t listen to His still small voice. Yet she felt His presence embrace her, and she felt it through vibration in her. And a praise song, “Awake my soul” spoke to her. She said she still has amnesia and she lost some memories for the latest few years. She thought He removed some memories she didn’t need. But we believed He would completely heal her (her memory and overall health).
I was amazed and in awe to know that He miraculously kept her alive and healed her, and let my sister know about His healing over her daughter in advance. It kept her from being panicked, but strengthened her faith that her daughter would be healed. He is a good Father and He is in control.
My sister, my niece and I met again in Nov. 2020 in almost 3 years. Now I got to know it was only 2~3 months after she was discharged from the hospital and started to walk slowly with a walker. Since we began to meet one another, I noticed her character was changed. The way she treated my mother, her grandma and the way she talked to us was changed. And now I got to understand she had a near death experience, yet she declared the three months in the hospital was the best time ever in her life. Praise God! Indeed, encounter with Him in the hospital transformed her character.
Over Christmas Eve lunch, she and I had a great bonding time, sharing a lot of testimonies that we didn’t share with one another for the past few years. And I would share more with you later. Just looking at the past few years, I realized the enemy indeed tried to destroy, steal and kill especially family relationship. Yet, our Father is faithful and in His time and in His way, He made everything beautiful. My niece thought that we needed that painful time or “a pause” so that He allowed it. She saw it as God also has a unique way of working with timing. And she believed when He restores, He makes things better than before, and some pain is actually necessary because it bears life. And I would agree, as our relationship got even better than that before we had those painful seasons. We realized how precious our family is. Interestingly enough, in that evening, my niece made a group chat and named it “Precious Family.”
Friend, I will write more stories later. In the meantime, I pray this testimony on our almighty and faithful Father may encourage and strengthen you.
Have a bliss!
A time to love,