How are you today? Hope you had or are having a good day today?
Previously, I wrote the blog “Dream” and shared how God speaks to His children through dreams. Today, I would like to share how He taught me to repent through a dream.
Earlier in April this year, I had a dream. I was not able to recall everything in the
dream when I woke up in the middle of the night, to go to restroom. But I recalled some of it and especially remembered my feeling in that dream. In the dream, my elder sister in California gave me a piece of jean pants and disappeared. And I found some bullets in the pocket of the jean pants. Because of the bullets in the
pocket of the jeans, some people followed me to catch me and I ran away like a
fugitive. While running away, I complained of my sister’s leaving the pants with the bullets in them to me and making me a fugitive. That was all I could recall when I woke up from the dream in the middle of the night.
When I got back to my bed from the restroom, I said to the Lord, “Father, if that dream were from You, please let me know what it means.” I was not able to get back to sleep soon as usual; I was wide awake for a while. Then, to my surprise, He reminded me of the incident twenty-eight years back, when I grumbled to my sister and blamed her for some bad results, spitting out the words to hurt her. Just like in that dream, I blamed her. Twenty-eight years ago, when I shared the incident with my friend, she said to me, “No, it was too harsh of you to say that to your sister. She might have been hurt.” But, out of pride, I didn’t apologize to her. Now, in twenty-eight years, the Lord gave me the dream where I blamed my sister and grumbled to her in my heart, and He also reminded me of the incident, when I asked Him the interpretation of the dream. I was certain that He wanted me to repent of it and also apologize to my sister.
I thought to myself, “Should I bring up the subject from twenty-eight years back now?” And I thought it would need my humility, but this time, I realized that I had hurt my sister and she might have been wounded by my words. I thought the Holy Spirit made me put her wounds before my pride and made me repent indeed. So, in the middle of the night, I repented to the Lord and went back to sleep.
And in a few hours when I woke up, I got some texts from my sister. It was the Easter in the US, and she said, “Happy Easter!” She sounded very happy, unlike the recent days in the lockdown. And I wrote a very long message to her, explaining what I saw in the dream last night and what the Lord reminded me, when I asked Him. And I said to her, “I’m so sorry that I hurt you at that time. I was so harsh to you.” And she said, “Yes, you were! Now you mention it, I forgive you.” And she continued to text me, sounding happy, to say that she was able to get up early in the morning, and attend the Easter service online. And she gave some money to the two homeless men in front of a grocery store. I felt that He even orchestrated the time of giving me the dream and apologizing to my sister. I felt He had something in store for her on “the Lord's Resurrection” day, and I was grateful to Him. He healed her wounds, and He was also gracious and merciful to me, as I was truly able to realize that my sister had been wounded by my words, but I had ignored and forgotten it so long. I recall a pastor’s sermon that we should ask the Holy Spirit to teach us to repent as the Lord wants, not just being emotional to say sorry to the Lord. And I thought that He taught me to think how my sister would have felt. And I was also in awe to see how He speaks to His children through dream.
I do not know what He must speak to you in person. It could be affirmation or chastisement or much-needed instructions or reminder to do something. No matter what, I pray that you would obey Him in Jesus’ name.
Or, if you think someone wronged you, please forgive him or her. One day, our righteous Lord will reveal the truth to him or her and lead him or her to repentance.
Have a bliss!
Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. Now He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He makes intercession for the saints according to the will of God. (Romans 8: 26~27)