How are you? I’m well.
On November 25th, 2020, I had a dream where I seemed to be in my old hometown. There I bumped into a classmate who went to the same elementary school and high school, to my recollection. I was not close to her at those times and I had an impression that she was bragging and shallow. In the dream, she was proud and said she came back from a trip to a certain place, naming the place. The place was new to me and I didn’t even clearly pick up the name.
So, I said to her, “Excuse me? Where?” Then she repeated the name of the place and I said to her, “I’ve never been there before, nor heard of it.” Then, she laughed out loud and kind of ridiculed me, saying “How come you’ve never heard of the popular place, nor been there?” I became very upset about her attitude. And I said to myself, “Does she even know I’ve been looking after my mom and my hands are all tied? She has no clue!”
Being so upset, I took my motorcycle, which I don’t own nor drive in reality. While I drove my motorcycle, I crossed the yellow line in the middle and drove further and further down the wrong side of the road. I saw many cars drive toward me as I drove the wrong way. Yet I was not scared at all, but actually enjoyed driving backward in the middle of the cars that were running against me. While driving my motorcycle, I knew there was an unidentified person or Person behind my back all the way. Many cars kept on running toward me and the road was crowded with cars. I felt I should stop driving the wrong way, worrying about the safety such that I flew up to the sky, still riding on my motorcycle. I kept driving in the air, seeing high rise buildings. I felt I was already driving at way too high a speed, but I was not able to slow down. Then, I saw a very high rise building in front of me, but it was too late to slow down or brake before crash.
At that very moment, I was reminded of Sister Margaret Seaward’s testimony. When Pastor Fred Seaward, her late husband and she were on the highway, and there was a moment of big crash, she didn’t even have time to pray, but cried out to the Lord, saying “Jesus!!!” Then, Pastor Fred saw two big hands grip their car and move it to the side of the express way. Being reminded of her testimony, I desperately cried out loud, “Jesus!!! Jesus!!!” closing my eyes. In a few seconds, I found myself still alive, without any crash and not riding on the motorcycle anymore. I opened my eyes and I found myself fall prostrate before the feet of Jesus. I saw His sandals and the floor was like transparent glass carpet. I knew I was still on the flight in the air, as I saw clouds through the glass carpet. When I looked up, I saw Jesus driving calmly, looking at front! He saved me when I cried out to Him, calling His name. And He was there with me. He was the one behind my back even on the motorcycle all the way. He is Immanuel and always with us! Then I woke up from the dream with the awe and the joy that He saved me, and He revealed Himself in my dream; it simply overwhelmed me. I lingered on my bed, thinking of Jesus that I saw. He wore a white robe with scarlet or crimson shawl. Then, I was able to recall the verse from Isaiah 1:18, which I read and tried to meditate and memorize the other night:
Though your sins are like scarlet,
They shall be as white as snow;
Though they are red like crimson,
They shall be as wool”
A while later, when I played the worship instrumental music online on my mobile phone, I read the verse: For I will restore health to you and heal you of your wounds. (Jeremiah 30:17)
I pondered this verse together with the dream on Jesus. In that dream, I was so upset about my classmate’s condescending attitude, while she didn’t know my circumstance. It had been my feeling toward people for the past few days. I was upset and I was even angry toward someone who I thought simply took advantage of me and even judged me. The thought about that person kept bothering me. The night before I had this dream, I sat on the floor and prayed to the Lord. I repented of my thought toward that person and I said to Him that I was still angry with that person though. Then, I felt Him saying, “I never condemn you. I know what you have been through and how you feel. You just recline on Me. You know My Words your pastor gave you the other day? That’s the Words I gave you. Memorize them.” I burst out into cry because of His love. He never condemned me, but the enemy. And He is a loving Father. I memorized the verse I received from my pastor in Singapore, personalizing it: When the LORD brought back the captivity of Zion, I was like those who dream. Then my mouth was filled with laughter,
And my tongue with singing. (Psalms 126:1~2)
Chewing on my dream, I felt the Lord want us to know that He not only saves us from the crisis and sins we have, but He also heals us from our pains. Not only when we encounter physical crisis, but when we carry emotional baggage, He wants us to cry out to Him, “Jesus!!! Jesus!!! Help!!!” He is our Savior, Healer, Redeemer and Restorer. More importantly, He is always with us. He is Immanuel. Friend, I do not know what circumstances you are in right now, but I know He wants you always to lean on Him, Immanuel, who came for us. Thanks be to Father God who sent us Immanuel! I wish you a Merry Christmas!
Have a bliss!
So all this was done that it might be fulfilled which was spoken by the Lord through the prophet, saying: “Behold, the virgin shall be with child, and bear a Son, and they shall call His name Immanuel,” which is translated, “God with us.”