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James Goll shared his struggles in a chapter: “When God Seems Silent” in his book, “Dream Language.” He wrote that he released public prophetic words to others for many years, but seldom received a public prophetic word himself and it hurt him. His security was being tested and God seemed silent to him.
His sharing of this experience and findings spoke to me much and I would like to share it with you:
Then, one day, I had struggles on a certain matter, and I was requested to do some certain actions related to it. I really had no idea as to what I must do. I was so confused over the matter. Not knowing what to do, I closed my laptop, but opened my Bible. I thought I could rely on the Words from the Lord only. I was so amazed when I simply continued to read the book of Psalms from where I stopped the other day. My bookmark led me to Psalms 91 and the words were so timely and comforting. Interestingly, He highlighted the words like snare and trap in the chapter. Then, Derek Prince Ministry’s post I saw the night before came into my mind and I opened my laptop. Unexpectedly, I happened to see he wrote a book, “Protection from Deception.” I searched the same title online to see whether the sermon would be available. I finally found one and listened to it. When I listened to Derek mention “lion” and “serpent” as demonic forces in the recording, to my surprise my eyes were exactly on “You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra. The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot” in Psalms 91:13. I was reminded of a lion in darkness during my prayer the other night. During the prayer, I saw a lion snarling in darkness. It was not a lion with mane, but a bit skinny, like it was a female. I wasn’t really sure whether it was the vision from the Lord or the imagination in my mind. While I listened to Derek Prince’ message and read the Scripture from Psalms 91, I thought of the snarling lion that I felt was a bit skinny in the vision. It must have been this young lion on the Scripture, and I confirmed the vision was from the Lord. I felt a warning for me not to get involved in the matter I was praying over. Still, the next morning, I expected Him to give me confirmation, when I opened my Bible, half-awake on the bed. Immediately, the first few verses in the book of Proverbs made me wide awake. I couldn’t agree enough that the Bible is such a practical book with a practical and timely warning. And I felt I should always run to Him for help and rely on His Scriptures.
From these experiences, I finally had a freedom not to chase after the personal words or prophecy. He speaks to us through many ways, and I also have direct access to Him through the Bible. I wouldn’t ignore prophecy nevertheless, as it’s certainly one of the gifts from the Holy Spirit to build up His Church. Yet, I think our heart attitudes are more important, when receiving the prophecy. Like James Goll shared, I was also able to be finished with chasing men for words and to declare the Lord as my source!
I recall Pastor R.T. Kendall saying something like, “If you want to receive Rhema Words (such as prophecy, His still small voice, etc.), you must listen to His Logos Words (The Bible).” I couldn’t agree more with him. When our heart motive is to fear Him, love Him, and enjoy walking with Him, I know He wants even more to speak to us and wants us to hear Him so clearly. This is because He is a loving Father, who wants relationship with His children.
Do James Goll’s story and mine speak to you? I pray that you and I may have the right heart attitude, not to chase after men’s words, but only long for His Words and fellowship, in Jesus’ name.
Have a bliss!
 Goll, James W. Dream Language: The Prophetic Power of Dreams. (pp. 189-190). Kindle Edition.
But who can discern their own errors?