On last Christmas Eve when my niece and I shared a lot of testimonies, I shared part of the prophecy I received from Korean prophet couple back in my Singapore time. I said to her that I doubted whether that part in the prophecy was really from the Lord, though. Then, she said, “Why don’t you ask the Lord?” It actually struck me. I noticed she asked Him many questions. Yet, I realized I don’t really ask Him proactively. I wrote on The Game with Minutes and I tried to talk to Him as often as I could and to practice the presence of the Lord like Brother Laurence did. Yet, my talk to Him was most of the time thanks-giving or my thoughts on something. I’m not saying it’s wrong, but I realized I lacked in asking Him questions proactively. I sometimes asked Him questions on the Scriptures I didn’t understand, and amazingly He answered me and taught me. Yet, I knew I didn’t ask Him many questions. I didn’t even ask Him often to give me something, believing He knows my needs and desires, and at the end of the day, His will should be done over everything. Yet I also realized part of the reasons I didn’t ask Him often would be my passive character. And another reason is fear: fear of hearing Him wrong; fear of hearing Him say something very difficult for me to obey; fear of hearing something that I don’t want to hear.
After the conversation with my niece, I still didn’t proactively ask Him. Then, like I shared last week, I bought Lana Vawser’s online courses. From the moment I watched her course, The Prophetic Voice of God and read her ebook, I got to understand why He wants me to learn from her. Before I listened to her course, I had been getting up in the middle of the night when He woke me up, to encounter Him. Yet, in all honesty, I felt it became kind of a ritual to me. But, when I listened to her course, I got to understand it’s all about intimate relationship, fellowship with Him, to know Him more and know His love toward us. And her sharing personal experiences including her mistakes and fear really encouraged me a lot. She also had fear of hearing Him wrong, missing Him and so on. And she encouraged me to ask Him, just like my niece said to me. Not only asking Him questions, I have to ask Him to show me His heart and show me amazing things I do not know like Jeremiah 33:3. And I took her words “Expectation is key” to my heart, and I expected that I would hear Him correctly and He would talk to me and answer my questions. From that moment on, when I got up in the middle of the night, I had my mobile phone in my hand to write down what I heard from Him, expecting Him to say something. I think my finding out a pink note recently and reading from it His words during my prayer time back in California in 2019/2020 was not a coincidence. Over the past few years, I used small notebooks to write down some verses and the thoughts in my heart, but didn’t proactively ask His voice. Then, recently, I did not even use small notebooks, due to lack of expectations. Finding out the pink notebook also encouraged me, making me think it’s really time to start proactively seeking Him and seeking to hear Him with expectations.
I also started to ask Him to give me interpretation of tongues. Though I enjoyed praying and singing in tongues for long, I wanted to understand what I was uttering in the Spirit. And I asked Him to give me His words for those whom I intercede for. Since I read a book, “Ambassador of God” written by my Seoul church elder, former ambassador to China, I wanted to have the gift he has: downloading His words for those whom he prays for and sharing them and encouraging them. Then, He said to me, “Keep on asking. I will give what you ask, as you’re not asking it for yourself.” Having courage and confidence that I can hear Him right, I started to write down His voice during my praying in tongues. And like Lana, I asked words for a few friends of mine and my family, while I simply prayed for them in the past. Sometimes, the words sounded so simple and general. Yet I wrote them down and chose to obey. I shared those words with my friends later on the day. Amazingly, I got to know the words were timely for some of them. I gave words to a friend in Singapore, “He leads you and your husband into a new season. He says ‘Do not worry. Be in peace.’” It sounded quite simple and general. Yet, she came back to me to say that she had been worried about her job due to her boss, and she had been worried about her daughter in Australia, as she would quit her job in this May and plans to travel to Europe for 8 weeks. She said, as she received His words, she wouldn’t worry, but choose to be in peace. I was really encouraged to hear that.
Then, on January 18th, I asked Him words for my family and He gave me ones for my niece as well as others. For my niece, He said, “She is My beloved daughter. I will show her great and mighty things. I will give her tongues so pray for her. Share your testimonies. Both of you will encourage one another.” I even wrote down the time, 4:44am when I received this, as she and I would record the time, knowing He speaks to us through numbers as well. Then, I didn’t share them with her yet, as we planned to meet in a few days on Lunar New Year Eve. So, I thought I would ask her whether she received tongues. I had an impression that she didn’t receive them yet. I thought she would’ve shared the testimony otherwise. Then, later in the evening on that day, she texted me and said that she was praying a while back and she felt so sleepy as if Abba Father held her tightly in His arms. Then, she heard three words in tongues and said to me that it was the first time that she spoke in tongues finally! I had goose bumps, and I burst out into tears. I was marveled as He gave her tongues and He let me know earlier on that day. I shared the words for her I wrote down in my phone with her, copying and pasting what He said to me at 4:44am. Both of us were amazed and cried for His goodness. She said that somehow after we met on last Christmas Eve, she started asking Him again to give her tongues. And I was encouraged to ask Him questions like my niece and Lana did. We were marveled, as He used us to encourage one another, after He restored our relationship.
Another story on January 17th. At 10am, I was supposed to attend a Sister Margaret’s class on the book of Hebrew. On the previous weekend, He showed her in my dream. When I asked Him something while in the dream, He spoke to me. And on the 17th, I knew from her class administrator that her birthday was on that week, but was not sure whether it was that day, 17th or some other day of the week. I spent some minutes to try to figure that out from the administrator’s chat history. Then, the Lord said, “Just text her and say ‘Happy Birthday!’” So, before the class started at 10am my time, I texted her and said “Happy Birthday!” And I also shared what I heard from Him, when asking Him words for her. She was the teacher to teach me on Hearing the Voice of God, yet I wanted to encourage her by sharing His words. So, I wrote what He said for her, “She is My beloved daughter. I will continue to use her for My Kingdom. Bless her and tell her that I love her.” She replied to me that she would write more to me later. Then, when the class started, a sister who was supposed to lead the worship and read out the Scriptures during the class, said “Happy Birthday, Sister Seaward!” Thank God! I texted her exactly on her birthday. He knows everything. Then, in the middle of the class, she said (I paraphrase), “I cried out for some people, as I don’t know whether they are still in my classes. I have hundreds of students in zoom and I don’t see all of the faces here. Then, one of them that I cried for texted me earlier today, and shared a Word from the Lord for me. Isn’t He so good?” I knew she was talking about me. (I always turned off video during the class. Only recently, I started to turn on video for the first hour, since He showed me something on her class through my dream.) I got to know she wanted to know whether I’m still in her classes, but from her mature character, she wouldn’t want to give me any pressure by asking me. Our Father is so so good.
Even this morning, I shared simple words with two persons. One was for my friend in Singapore whose daughter had been away from the Lord since her university years. I shared His words that her daughter would return to Him. Then, she replied to me, sharing her dream last night where she said to her daughter, “You were such a good girl when you were young.” And the dream ended. I think it was not a coincidence, but His providence that she received that dream and I received those words. Another word was for a missionary for N. Korea. It was just simple. He said, “Tell her that I love her.” That was all. I shared it with her. And she replied, “I’ve been weary from the spiritual warfare, but the words strengthen me. And I’ve been doubting whether I’m really on the right track. Now I think I received the answer from the Lord. :)” I was so encouraged. I shared simple words yet they were encouraged and strengthened. Hallelujah!
Lastly, I would like to share Lana Vawser’s story in her book, The Prophetic Voice of God. When she was at Bible colleague, she worked for a Christian cafe part time as a barista. She prayed for hearing for others who were outside the four walls of the church. Yet, when she heard His words or saw visions, she was so afraid of stepping out in faith and sharing them. But this story is really encouraging:
So I looked at a woman who had just paid for her coffee, and I heard three things:
1. “I love her.”
2. “I have heard her cries and I haven’t forgotten her.”
3. “I am going to heal and restore her family.”
She came over to take her coffee, and I didn’t want to let go of the cup. It was the moment of decision. Do I share this word; do I not? I checked my word against First Corinthians 14:3: But when someone prophesies, he speaks to encourage people, to build them up, and to bring them comfort.
Okay—tick! Tick! Tick! The “what if” was creeping back in, but I was quickly reminded again of the “what if” of Him showing up and “what if” I say nothing and it’s one of those tipping point moments. So I let go of the cappuccino and released the word to her. It was very simple—I asked her permission first if I could share something encouraging with her. She said yes. I opened my mouth and said, “God really loves you. He has heard your cries, and He hasn’t forgotten you, and He is going to heal and restore your family.” She looked at me quite blankly, and that few seconds without her response felt like a year. Then she began to cry. She wept as she looked at me and said, “This morning I asked God three questions. ‘Do You love me? Are You hearing my cries? Have You forgotten me? Will You heal my family?’” I couldn’t believe it. I was over the moon! I was so excited! The Lord had showed up as I stepped out! Wow! After I released that word, I was given other opportunities to minister to this lady one on one. It was such a beautiful moment.
I want to remove the pressure that might say you have to deliver a grand, huge prophetic word from God and have angels show up. That’s amazing when it happens, but being a voice of hope and life and releasing the encouragement of God wherever you go is so powerful.
Friend, I’d like to encourage you to start to ask Him, if you haven’t asked Him to speak to you. If you had fear of hearing Him wrong like I did, or doubt whether He will speak to you, I would like to share His promise, “My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me. (John 10:27)” Our Lord can’t tell a lie. He said we can hear His voice, as we are His sheep. Just start today with expectation. Ask Him one question. You might want to ask Him to give you a Scripture. I began to ask Him like Lana did, “Lord, what’s on Your heart, today?” She shared what she experienced in her class. Some people received a flash of picture and they paint it. His ways are unpredictable, and He is creative. It can be a Scripture or a short word or a flash of picture or long dreams at night. You may ask “But what is this all about?” Our Father wants fellowship & friendship with us. Prior to Adam’s fall, Adam and Eve walked with Him daily and they knew His presence. Now, our Lord Jesus reconciled our broken relationship with the Father so that we have 24/7 access to the Father. He longs to speak to you and longs to hear from you. It’s all about love and relationship, not religiosity. From that place of intimacy, He wants us to be a channel of His love and blessings to others.
It’s my prayer that you and I simply adore and love Him and out of pure heart, we boldly come to the throne of God and commune with Him. He is a good Father.
Have a bliss!
One thing I have desired of the Lord,