How are you? I’m very well.
In late December 2020, I listened to Pastor Mark Johnson’s teaching and he talked about Walter Beuttler’s testimony, saying he was a mentor of his late father, Neville Johnson. Then, I wanted to know more about Walter Beuttler, thinking what the mentor of Neville Johnson, so-called modern-day Enoch would be like. And I found out his book, “The Manifest Presence of God: My Spiritual Journey” and bought an e-book, not knowing the free pdf book is available on The Academy of Light website. (I’m sharing the link here, if you are interested.) It is a short book and I would tell you that you wouldn’t want to put it down, once you start to read it. I was stunned to read his testimonies, and I also smiled a lot, resonating with one of his experiences he shared in the book. He wrote that he knew the Lord desired to meet with him in the early morning hours, but it was very difficult for him to change his sleep pattern and to get up at 6am, which he thought was early. He asked the Lord to wake him up at six. Strangely, he heard a car crash in his neighborhood and a quiet old couples’ bickering exactly at 6am. The Lord answered his prayer, yet he couldn’t get up, but slept on. I couldn’t help smiling when reading this story. Like I shared in my previous blog, “Watchman,” I felt the Lord waking me up in the middle of the sleep and I woke up to pray. However, getting up is one thing and staying up is quite another. I felt so sleepy while praying. One day, I felt as if He said, “You’re only waiting for going back to sleep, not waiting for Me.” At this, my heart felt poked. Another day, I felt Him waking me up, but still with my head on my pillow; I felt so sleepy. I heard His still small voice, “Yunee, yes, it was Me that poked you.” But I said, “AW… But I’m so sleepy…” and I continued to sleep.
Reading Walter Beuttler’s story, I felt I was not alone. Even this great man of God went through it. Though I’m still struggling with staying awake in the middle of the night, I’m trying to get up to meditate on His Words and listen to and talk to Him. I would like to share one more story of Walter Beuttler’s.
The Lord would come into my room in many different ways. Often, He would wake me up by knocking. When I heard this knock, I noticed that it would be exactly 2:30... I began to wonder why the Lord almost always came at 2:30. I knew that scripturally, no hour is more significant than another. I sought the Lord concerning this, and He gave me the understanding that I desired. Long before, I had learned that there was a higher purpose for the night times than just sleeping. The Lord has revealed many choice truths to me during the long nights, as I spent time in His presence by “waiting upon Him.”
Then the Lord spoke this to me. “By 2:30, you have had enough sleep so you will be able to commune with Me for a time without falling asleep. And when we finish, there is enough time left for you to receive adequate rest for your day’s work.” Our Lord is very considerate and understanding. This caused me to love and respect Him even more.
Beuttler, Walter. The Manifest Presence of God: The Spiritual Journey of Walter Beuttler (p. 51). Deeper Lift Press. Kindle Edition.
One night at the year end, in 2020, I waited on the Lord, meditating on His Words and worshiping Him. The Words, ‘Everlasting Abba’ came into me and my eyes got wet. I imagined myself as a little child walking with Jesus, having a big smile on my face and looking at Him. Then, I also imagined myself sitting in front of the throne of God the Father with sapphire blue color around. That was before my Abba’s throne. I said to Him, “Thank You for being my everlasting Abba, Papa!” Then, on January 1st, I woke up at 3:13. While I saw the number 3:13, I wondered whether He was trying to say something to me, using this number. Since I looked up Jeremiah 33:3 the other night, I simply looked up Jeremiah 31:3. To my utter amazement, it says:
The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying:
“Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.”
I was stunned to read His affirmation. Indeed, my everlasting Abba drew me with His lovingkindness at that hour.
I’m not saying you have to get up at a certain hour in the middle of the night. Yet I encourage you to set aside a quiet time to wait upon Him and simply enjoy the everlasting love of our Heavenly Father. He loves you and draws you near to Him. The almighty God wants you to call Him Papa. We know little children don’t learn how to love their parents, but they naturally snuggle up to their parents and they simply enjoy their parents’ company. They have no agenda but loving and being loved by their parents. We are all His everlasting children. We simply throw our arms around our Abba and snuggle up to Him.
Have a bliss!
I have set the Lord always before me;