How are you? Hope you had or are having a good day, today?
One morning in July, I woke up maybe after 5:30am or so way before my alarm was supposed to ring. While still lingering on my bed, I hummed a Korean worship song in my heart, “Christ in me.” It just came to my mind so that I sang the song in my heart. Then, I tried to play out a piano instrument music in a channel I subscribe in YouTube, in order to linger a bit longer on the bed. When I opened the app, I was surprised to see the channel post the very song, “Christ in me.” The channel owner uploads a music daily and that song was posted overnight. Then, in a day or two, I woke up again earlier than my alarm was supposed to ring. I sat on the sofa in the living room and worshiped the Lord. I was reminded of Pastor John Fenn’s teaching on prayer and worship so that I tried to take some time to be silent, after reading Psalms, singing praises and praying in tongue. After some moments of silence, I prayed and sang in tongue. Then, suddenly, I sang the song, “Amazing love, how can it be…” I never intended to sing that song and it’s been a while that I listened to or sang the song. But the song just came out of my mouth, while I was singing in tongue. As I don’t remember the whole lyrics, I googled the song. To my amazement, the lyrics said, “I’m alive and well. Your Spirit is within me, because You died and rose again.” So, I felt that the Lord confirms the Words, “Christ in me” I’ve been meditating on. Later on July 25th, when I had a monthly zoom meeting with my pastor in Singapore and others, He again confirmed it through a few brothers’ messages.
One night on my bed, I closed my eyes to sleep and said to the Father, “Father, thank You, as You’re in me. I have nothing to fear.” As I said that and realized the truth, His peace overwhelmed me. Indeed I have nothing and none to fear, as Christ is in me. Like Ephesians 2 said, I was made alive together with Him, was raised up with Him and was made sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus. I have peace with God and I have His wisdom. All I need to do is not asking, but knowing and reckoning the fact, like Watchman Nee wrote in his book. And he also wrote that what we need to do is not praying to ask for something, but praising God for it, as it’s already given to us. Isn’t it marvelous? We need to realize that Christ lives in us, not ourselves any more. We died on the cross when He died. Now He was resurrected and He abides in us. All we need to do is to surrender totally to the Holy Spirit. He works in us, not we, ourselves.
Friend, you might have watched the news on the first image of the cosmos from NASA’s James Webb space telescope. The beautiful galaxies 13.8 billion years ago. Seriously, I don’t even get the feel of how old it is, but certainly I am in awe of His majesty. He is the Creator and Possessor of the universe and He is from eternity to eternity. Then, I became overwhelmed by His goodness. We don’t even understand how vast He is. He cannot be contained. Yet that Creator of the universe wants to dwell in us. He is looking for His dwelling place in us. Isn’t it awesome? You and I have that Creator of the galaxies made billions years ago in us.
Finally, I would like to share a beautiful story that Pastor John Fenn shared in a weekly thought, “You Might Be a Legalistic Believer if…” back in 2016. It’s about his first son, Chris, and his best friend. We know our Father loves children. When I read this story for the first time, my eyes were in tears. Many times, children indeed know the Father better than anyone. I hope you and I are childlike and we enter His Kingdom.
Have a bliss!
“At the group home where our oldest son, Chris, lives most of the week, is another Christian, and she and Chris are the best of friends. The bonding in the Spirit of these 2 ‘mentally retarded’ adults, to use the old expression, took place years ago the moment they met at the group home, without any effort on the part of any parent or staff. (Chris is mentally about 4, though nearly 37. His friend similar.)
When she is upset the staff noticed (on numerous occasions that continue to this day) Chris grab her hand and tell her “It’s okay _____, Jesus is with us”, and he will also just touch her arm and say “Jesus name!” after she has fallen and hurt herself, which happens due to her condition quite often.
When we bring Chris back to the group home after his weekly 2 day visit home, we usually have a meal before – McDonald’s or Pizza Hut for instance – and he often insists on bringing her some fries or pizza. Back at the group home I roll him to the table and she sits down next to him, and Chris tells her about his time with us. She shakes her head in agreement, hanging on his every word, eating a french fry here and there, like they were on a date all by themselves at a burger joint. It’s so cute and innocent and pure.
We wonder what heaven will bring when they can build on their friendship without the hinderances of damaged ‘earth bodies’.
While Chris loves watching Christian TV shows like “Gospel Bill” and “Animated Stories of the Bible”, and he looks at picture Bibles – he doesn’t know how to read. He has never written a thing in a journal about the Lord, he has no set prayer time, only goes to church occasionally when we bring him to house church functions or one of the staff takes the residents to a local church from time to time.
The same can be said of his best friend. Yet they are two of the most spiritually gifted, pure hearted, genuinely loving people you’d ever want to meet – they put the rest of us ‘normal’ Christians to shame in so many ways. Chris told me one day “Know what Jesus said to me dad? He’s going to walk through the mountains with me, yep, that’s what He said, He’s going to walk through the mountains with me one day. Yahoo! That’s so cool!” (As he laughed to himself) Yet Chris has no structure to his spiritual life at all.
As Chris and she were eating the remains of some french fries one day, the house manager who is also a believer, pulled me aside and told me this story as her eyes welled up with tears due to the beauty and innocence of the moment. Chris’ friend had been having some health issue and needed a chest x-ray. As the manager was explaining to her that they wanted to take a picture of her heart, her eyes filled with wonder and great eagerness as she asked with all innocence and sincerity, “Will they see Jesus?”
That’s the big question, isn’t it? If they looked at our heart, would they see Jesus? Chris and his friend don’t measure their walk with the Lord by their spiritual discipline, for they have none. They just walk with the Lord. They remain as children and have not only entered the kingdom of God, but walk with Him in it. It is only we so called ‘normal’ people who complicate child-like faith with all sorts of encumbrances…”
O Lord, our Lord,